Perfume...Eu De Toilette

Woot....bought these yesterday. I like the Love Etc. from The Body Shop but too bad the scent is not long lasting.

I should type a lot here but dunno somehow I feel no mood to comment anything. But I really enjoyed the shopping yesterday. I even took half day leave just to go shopping!!! And only went back home at 6pm. :P

But yesterday i was 'saved by the bell'. When i walked to Parkson, suddenly my sandal broken and I need to walk back to the car to get another sandals. I already predicted this thing will happen and put extra sandal inside the car. :P Luckily not many people that time and I bet nobody realized that I walked with my bare foot. Hahaha...

Parkson got sell, bought tracksuit + jacket (one suit) which cost only $89 while the real price suppose to be $200. Then bought new shoes + sandals which cost only $40 while the real price suppose to be $100. Then bought 2 cashmere shirts for only $40. Then bought perfumes. I really loved this part. I guess my first novel really helped a lot. For a while i did some researches regarding my writing, and these really helped at the perfumes shop. :P

Speaking of Love Etc. The base note: musk, sandalwood, vanilla; The middle note: Jasmine, heliotrope, lily of the valley; Top note: neroli, bergamot, pear. But what I can smell are vanilla and musk. Too bad the scent doesn't blend with my body scent. The 2nd perfume that I bought is from Silky Girl, Sporty. Also the Vanilla and Musk scent really strong as well as the alcohol also really strong.

Next month I will get the Elizabeth Arden perfume. It's kinda funny coz I start 'crazy' with perfumes.

Then went to Daesim to buy watch and earrings. The watch is green color, the beaded watch. Then went to Premier to buy jeans and belt. The original price suppose to be $120 but I get the 50% discount and I get the red color belt to match the jeans.

Today i wear new jeans, new cashmere shirt (pink strip), new belt, new shoes, new watch and also new perfume. Personally I like the belt....its really match with the shirt. Hahahaha...glad that i get the color. Next time I must get the white color belt....and also another watch to match with any color shirts. I like the jeans too tho' the size a bit bigger (i get the 28 size tho' my size is 27) ...but doesnt matter, i might grow bigger. Hahahaha.....

And I also surveyed for the laptop....and I asked about the original (i should say licensing) Microsoft Office. The guy said $288. I will go and check again next time. Haiz~

I know yesterday TH arrived at KL around 6.30pm. I just have some kind of weird feeling (but nah...nevermind...). I think these few days (weekend) I wont online so much as i want to occupy myself with 'real life'.

No matter what, life must goes on. He doesnt know my existence, at the same time, life is great....always.... Cheer up!!!

Happy Night Out?

Yesterday was the craziest day I ever had. After office hours, I went to Medan Mall to buy some sweets and gummies. I spent about $16 for that purpose only. :P

When I reached home, dad asked whether I want to join having dinner at my auntie's house, so I just said okay. That was not totally a worse dinner as I'm not the only 'subject' that night. Hahaha.....I just realized my cousin also on the same boat with me. His mom starts talking about marriage, then mom also interrupted. And both me and my cousin looked at each other meaningfully, "Gosh....."

At the same time my other auntie (all dad's sisters) served a glass of bacardi apple. At first I thought it was a sky juice. ZzzZzz....While the aunties-uncles nagging here and there, I kept drinking bacardi (with 32% alcohol) until half bottle finished. :P

It's a good thing when my cousin stand out for us and said, "We're not ready yet to involve in commitment." Hahahaha.... I dont know his issue, but for my issue, i think stay single is better as i have more freedom, hahahaha.....that's it, unless if Bill or Colin wants me? :P

We were talking about many issues, including the black magic, and even the dead. The best part was.....blackout! Nobody could see my face, errr....maybe a drunken face. :P We went back around 10pm, and I could feel my head spinning (but i dont think im drunk yet), great, bacardi on the rock really get me. Haha...

And that night, I had 3 dreams, the first dream was Humanoid City Tour. It's kinda weird coz they determine the tour with color; such as Yellow Humanoid City Tour, Green Humanoid City Tour....bla..bla...bla...

The 2nd dream was me...on the stage trying to perform a song which I wrote myself. I was accompanied by 2 more fellow which i believe my cousins, but the worst part is, when it was my turn to perform, suddenly my guitar strings tangled to each other, then 1 guy came and gave me 'sape'! So i was like, "What the hell!!! How can I play this song using sape'?" But no matter what, the show must go on, I played the song using sape' and in the middle of the song, I asked my cousin, "Come on tell me what's the next chord?" And she was like, "O, E.." in a loud voice and when i woke up, I was like, "Never heard any O chord." Hahaha....

But I still remember part of the song lyric, "Loving You, Loving Me.....Together we can make it true." And the melody is like the combination of a song "Loving You....." and also MJ song, "We are the world....we are the children....."

In my dream, I could see many queers people, mostly the blondie, some with the dreadlocks hair. Hmm...

Two Different Worlds

Title : Two Different Worlds

By : Ray Kidz

At the first time I see you,

I know that my heart belongs to you,

You just some kind of drugs to me,

I can't take away my eyes off you,

You drag me closer to you.

Everyone have tried to warn me,

This is only some kind of game,

I told them all, we were meant for each other,

I thought our world are the same,

There's nothing to ponder.

There's a wall between us,

You don't know my name,

But you cannot be blamed,

I wish I can break the wall,

So that we can be together forever.

We are from two different worlds,

You live in Forbidden Kingdom,

I only can see you,

But I cannot touch you,

And I cannot feel you.

Two different worlds...

Two different worlds...

Everyone have tried to tell me,

"You live in two different worlds",

Does it mean I'm not meant for you?

Oh please let it be...

You belong to me.

Two different worlds...

Two different worlds...

And now i understand,

We are from two different worlds,

I turn around,

But you walk away,

And all I want to say is....Goodbye....

Shadow Lover

Title : Shadow Lover

Shadow-Lover, never seen by day,
Only deep in dreams do you appear
Wisdom tells me I should turn away,
Love of mist and shadows, all unclear-
Nothing can I hold of you but thought
Shadow-Lover mist and twilight wrought.

Shadow-Lover, comfort me in pain.
Love, although I never see your face,
All who'd have me fear you speak in vain-
Never would I shrink from your embrace
Shadow-Lover, gentle is your hand
Never could another understand.

Shadow-Lover, soothe me when I mourn
Mourn for all who left me here alone,
When my grief is too much to be borne,
When my burdens crushing-great have grown,
Shadow-Lover, I cannot forget-
Help me bear the burdens I have yet.

Shadow-Lover, you alone can know
How I long to reach a point of peace
How I fade with weariness and woe
How I long for you to bring release.
Shadow-Lover, court me in my dreams
Bring the peace that suffering redeems.

Shadow-Lover, from the Shadows made,
Lead me into Shadows once again.
Where you lead I cannot be afraid,
For with you I shall come home again-
In your arms I shall not fear the night.
Shadow-Lover, lead me into light.

Another Idea...

Okay.....this one will be a 'collaboration' with Siput.....we will come out with 2 songs (for started):-

1. Dunia Kita Berbeza

2. Shadow Lover

1. Dunia Kita Berbeza, this song will be mixed english-malay.

2. Shadow Lover, this is totally an english song.....i might come out with something like Phantom Rider. :P

We'll see how's the result later. This is just a plan.....I need to write it down or else I will forget it next. So, how do we get the idea? From word teasing.... Hahahaha..... :P

IS Training

Today is the first day of training. i guess i dont pay any attention. :P Luckily i bring along my phone and nw can online via phone. zzz...the trainer is so boring. His voice really make me feel so sleepy,

Love This Part - The Strong Toilet Paper!!!

The credit goes to Tokio Hotel TV. I don't own this video.

Madness

Title : Madness

By : Ray Kidz

Hey...Here I am

Standing on the stage

Singing the songs they love to hear

And my voice is so clear

And there they are

Waving...

Screaming...

Jumping...

And all I can say

This is all the madness

Madness...

Madness...

Madness...

I start making a move

I sway my body...hey...

There's nothing to lose

All I need is to prove

And there they are

Waving...

Screaming...

Dancing...

And all I can say

This is all the madness

Madness...

Madness...

Madness...

Idea...Idea....

I got ideas to write a song.....i'll think of the lyrics later. But the title will be :-

1. If I Have My Second Life
2. The Past Memories
3. Mystic
4. Madness


Madness is about fans....a very fanatic one...who screams for their favorite celebrities.

The Second Life.....maybe???

I had this dream last night. Not sure whether to put it into a story or not. It seems like Bill appeared in front of me while nobody could see him except for me. So it was like his spirit. He asked me to help him and i couldn't say no to him as he kept pestering me until i said yes. That was really sounded like "Twenties Girl".

Bill was asking me to talk to Tom which as a result, Tom thought that i just a very freaky fanatic fan a.k.a a stalker and he never believe my words. I almost give up but Bill was there, standing next to Tom while he couldnt even see him.

So when I wake up this morning, I was thinking, why not i make it into a story. I know it's sound so stereotype, but I can make it original tho'. Which mean I will come out with 2 books; book 1 and book 2.

Book 1 is all about the gal....this gal who can see a spirit (with no special talent), trying to convince the brother that the 'spirit' still alive. They (the gal and the spirit) get to know each other better, they even write a song together.

Book 2 is about the spirit who gets up from his comma state. He cant remember anything, but everywhere he goes, he can feel the memories, which is like a dream. His brother knows it well, but doesnt want to tell him. But at last, they make a public announcement of finding this 'special' gal who saved his life.

My New Hair Style and the eyes???

Woot......It's weird...just like looking at other people eyes. :P

I look evil here.... :P

Wish that the streak got white color. haiz~

Gosh....Bill's doll

Okay.....i want this doll. Bill Kaulitz version!!!

Bill Kaulitz....again?

wow....this is the 3rd time i dreamt of Bill Kaulitz. I bet Siput will gonna envy me. :P The first time i dreamt of Bill was like a few weeks ago....which the dream was mixed up with Bradley's dream. I cant remember much just I know inside my dream i said, "Okay...that is Bill Kaulitz.." so...that's it....i dreamt of him. Hahahaha...

The 2nd time was a few days ago....that was the funniest dream i ever had. Maybe before sleep, Siput showered me with Bill Kaulitz chat, and even 'forced' me to watch Bill's videoclip and I tried to look at Colin Morgan's pictures as much as possible to 'clean' my mind from Bill's face. But Siput said, "I know you will dream of Bill tonight."

Yes, the prediction was correct. I did dream of Bill but not in a 'good' condition as in my dream, I was with Bill, going to wet market. Muahahaha......Wet Market! I remember that I showed him the way to fruits stall, and then we even buy some vegetables and fishes!

The next morning when i told Siput, she was like laughing hysterically. Bill with me....doing groceries shopping at wet market! Hmm...i like that idea. :P And Siput asked me how tall is he.....so I said...i was like up to his chin or maybe lower.

Then last night....having a hilarious dream of Bill Kaulitz again. He was like giving me his hands cream with Bill Kaulitz brand. ZzzZzz....I remember the tube color was light green. He even demonstrated to me on how to apply the cream in a correct way. That was really ZzzZzz...

Okay...to be honest, Im not fancy Tokio Hotel much....well....maybe 5%....but Siput did poison my mind with them. Oh yea...but yesterday I found out that one fan wrote about Bill is looking for his life partner, but not a one night partner. I felt something from this comment...not the way Im thinking about Bill....not like how Siput thinks about him....but....I'm thinking of Colin Morgan? Or maybe Bill? My brain was corrupted now. Lol!

Another convo with Siput on 1st April 2010 - April Fool?

Saya says:
hahahaahaa
Saya says:
fuhh
Saya says:
hypocrite
Saya says:
creating a gud image is not as gud as having a gud one in the first place
...Kidz... says:
but who cares? they are the world's idol
...Kidz... says:
fans can easily forgive them
Saya says:
true...based on what i see in the other fans who actually talk to them its like they don't care even if they had their one nite of pleasure and cast aside
Saya says:
*being cast aside after that
Saya says:
as long as they get to have their dream "come true"
Saya says:
but i often wonder whether what the fans fantasize about their "celebrity beloved" is as good as the real deal they encounter fr real
...Kidz... says:
nope..for sure nope
...Kidz... says:
tua salah seorang daripada orang yang fall in tht category
...Kidz... says:
which is pretty sad actually
Saya says:
and whether would they feel disappointed after they give themselves to the celeb only to feel that it's just s3x
Saya says:
nothing more than that?
Saya says:
correction, we are not in that category yet
Saya says:
hahahahaahahahahaa
Saya says:
we are still lucky compared to the other girls out there who actually went as far as to sleep around with them
...Kidz... says:
just becoz we r so far away...
...Kidz... says:
nti tua ulih tracking sida ya easily.....do u think u wont become one of them?
...Kidz... says:
nti nda....sampai besebut ka one night stand
Saya says:
i know i won't become one of them
Saya says:
bcuz my heart is unfortunately, ruled by my brain
Saya says:
zzzzzzzz
...Kidz... says:
lol
...Kidz... says:
i might want to have one night stand with bradley....but with 2nd thought.....i think nope
...Kidz... says:
hahaha
...Kidz... says:
i wont 'give' him wht he wants
Saya says:
bcuz this runs thru my mind when i think about them having one nite stands
Saya says:
she's giving herself to me for free....who am i to resist her fantasies
Saya says:
to me, i'd like the idea of one nite stands just to hang out with them all night without anything embarrassing happening
Saya says:
it's my kind of IDEAL one night stand-----talking all nite about everything under the sun with the celeb that i admire and getting some answers on how his views are
Saya says:
but not like an interview kinda way
Saya says:
but like old frens who just reconciled kinda way
...Kidz... says:
but i really wanna meet collin morgan and ask him this stupid question, "how do you feel being pulled up using the wire and crashed into the wall....does it hurt?"
...Kidz... says:
muahahahaha
Saya says:
HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA
Saya says:
gud one
Saya says:
i'm surprised u didn't turn out to be a journalist
...Kidz... says:
lol
...Kidz... says:
too bad....
...Kidz... says:
im ready with the questions to ask either bradley n collin....like u said....one night stand to chit chat with them....but i prefer on the park....under the moonlight
Saya says:
yes!
Saya says:
exactly like that
Saya says:
where the nite is soundless
...Kidz... says:
lol
...Kidz... says:
actually my 2nd story suppose to dedicate for bradley....
Saya says:
oyh....nyau di-romanticized ga idea nyk dah nyka
Saya says:
really?
Saya says:
hmm....i think i will dedicate my second story to all the celebs i've been fascinated by
Saya says:
or better, use their personality within the characters
...Kidz... says:
exactly.....but i change his name....to Austin Bradley
Saya says:
lols!
Saya says:
good one
...Kidz... says:
it's about a gal...she's a travel writer
...Kidz... says:
actually she meets austin bradley by coincidence
...Kidz... says:
his wallet drop....dikutip indu tu
...Kidz... says:
then they always meet everywhere.....tapi austin bradley tu a bit arrogant ga....he said the gal stalking him
...Kidz... says:
actually nadai indu nya stalking ya
...Kidz... says:
the story is about tht....ending ya...i think i might put it ironic a bit
...Kidz... says:
ending ya....relationship ya nggau laki nya nda berkekalan.....she go back to her country....dlm flight, she meets another guy...which is not a celebrity
...Kidz... says:
and live happily ever after
...Kidz... says:
hahaha
Saya says:
hehehehehe
Saya says:
gud one
Saya says:
u have one of the most original stories ever]
...Kidz... says:
thts y tajuk ya Obsession
Saya says:
it's a wonder why u never got them published
Saya says:
hahahahahaa
Saya says:
ytd, i saw a book wth the same title
Saya says:
zzzzzzzzz
...Kidz... says:
coz my grammar not so strong....i just use common words
...Kidz... says:
okok..i might change the title
Saya says:
zzzzzzzz.....
Saya says:
kawan boss is here
...Kidz... says:
kk

Another dream again yesterday night

Cat

Dreaming of a cat is a generally unfortunate omen and it shows treachery as well as a run of bad luck. If you chase the cat away you will overcome your adversaries or turn your bad luck into good. For the cat lovers who dream of cats you have a whole new meaning....if the cat is beautiful you will meet an attractive person who will become your mate. If the cat scratches you then will you meet with treachery and deceit.

Orait....i remember i dream of cat yesterday. Actually it's owned by an old lady...she said she wants the cat to be pretty. I saw the cat was a normal cat...grey color but the fur were hmm....either being colored....by green color and colourful. But i could see the green color obviously. The cat was tame....and i kept stroking the cat's fur. The lady even liked me....and before i wake up....the lady was asking me to help her to call a cab....I remember i wrote down her address but after wake up i cant remember the address anymore....but for sure the address is not from this country.

Become a Teacher???

Last night I had a dream. In my dream, I seem to be a new teacher and going to report duty in one school. I carried one bagpack on my right shoulder and another bag on my left hand. I wore short black skirt and blue blouse.

I was kinda lost my way to the staffroom. I saw the entrance door but I thought I can use another way round to reach the entrance door but it leads me to another room. At last I need to turn back. I remember that I opened the small door which lead to a 5 stars washroom. I also walked pass a few teachers which never talk to me at all.

When at last I found the staffroom, at the entrance, there were 2 small kids (which i believe were students), playing with a hose and 1 of the kids sprayed the water toward me. I was soaked and I walked toward the kid and pulled his right ear and said, "Be careful, I know your dad....he is my very best friend." The kid just kept quiet after that.

Then I entered the staffroom (which I found out that it turned out to become a cafeteria), so I sat at the nearest seat that I could see. I met a few teachers which were friendly enough. The headmaster started to give a short speech before he allowed the next teacher which was sitting in front of me to give her speech. And that time i said, "Gosh...im sure they gonna ask me to give a speech next." But i was lucky as she only introduced me to everybody and I only need to stand up, but I found out another guy (another teacher) also stood up, he might mistook it or might do it on purpose to welcome me.

After that, they started to talk about game. And the teacher who was sitting next to me said, "This remind me of the time when we keep fighting last time." She was like 40 years old, but a very energetic lady, she wore red color dress and her hair was white color and short. I seemed to know her for ages as she was so friendly, maybe she's the only teacher who talks to me.

Then they started to shout "Over village.." So....the game called Over Village....(i dont understand anything) and some of the teachers started doing the action...or maybe some kind of dance?

The lady teacher whispered to me, "Look behind me, do you recognize him?" So i turned my head over my shoulder and I spotted a guy. He looked at me at the same time and smiled a bit (some kind of unsincere smile) then he moved toward a guy (another teacher) who sits next to me. I tried to look at the guy again, just in case if I recognize his face but it comes in vain.

So i turned my face and concentrated with the stage. After that I took out a tissue from my clutch and wiped out the water from my face. I still wet!

I can't remember the dream end at which 'scene' as after that my dream changed....then I dream of Colin Morgan. I know that I dream of him just I cant remember the 'storyline'.

Nothing Much

It's been a while since I write the blog. I just need to keep the record of the books that i bought. Last week (Thursday) i bought 3 story books from Public BookStore. 1. How To Sleep With A MovieStar; 2. Perfect Image; 3. Trick or Treat.

I was too obsessed with Bradley J. until i need to get over it. Luckily I found the books and after I read the books, I feel better now. Phewww...So no more star crush. :P But I still carry on with my 2nd novel. Already thought of the ending. And this morning I told Siput about the storyline and she said I come out with one of the most original story. Is that a compliment or??? Doesnt matter....as the idea is not taken from anywhere....I just come out with the idea with my obsession. :P

Then, speaking of yesterday. Anyway....YAY! i got back my internet line at home. This time with better connection and better speed. Talking about the installation.....there was one embarassing incident. The technician guy didnt know my house, so I told him the direction to my house...but he still lost. And at last I went out to fetch him at the junction. It's funny as I used my instinct to recognize him. Anyway.....the guy was kinda cute. Lol! And once he parked the car in front of my house, our neigbour's daughter said, "Wow.....cute..." And....really embarrassed me! I bet they mistook the guy as my boyfriend. ZzzZzz....

Anyway...as usual I talked a lot....or more to asking a lot of questions. :P That's just my natural. Act innocent, act naive....while digging for more knowledges. The guy was quite okay....But....I bet bro already scolding the guy the night before. ZzzZzz....

I also asking the same question....why in the approval email, suppose to be 22nd March but until now the internet hasnt install yet....and i could sense his guilty....he said he totally forgot until I called back. ZzzZzz....But it's not my style to lost my tantrum...so i just ignored...But i noticed 1 thing....he smelled like car air freshener. A very strong one! Which remind me of my first novel. Lol!