Chatted with Siput just now. I dunno how many times i need to deny this. I said I don't like R-Patz, yet he keeps appear in my dream.
Maybe I've been unfair to him. I shouldn't hate him. And I like Bradley, but now I feel like no different from the others. I already turned into a groupie.
Don't know what happen to me today. I'm so much into London, and now, I might not be able to go there, at least not in a decade!
Siput told me that we might start with the nearest location first, maybe Thailand, Australia, China, Japan, Indonesia. I dream of London almost everyday! What am i suppose to do?
But life isn't fair. It leaves us with no choice. I wish I can do more in this life. I want to travel all around the world, and learn about the others culture.
And i'm thinking of some miracles. I kept asking my friends (few friends like Siput and Panda), "Are there any miracles in this world?" And both of them answered me, "Of coz." But how come I don't feel any?
I'm waiting...and still waiting...I'm lurking...and still lurking....
Just i hope i have this strength if someday I'm gonna meet Bradley. And I might wish "all the best" to R-Patz too. Just hope that, hmm....I can't say it...haiz~ I really need to get rid of this obsession! I'm no different from the others now. I'm nothing special now....and they know that.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I need to get over this obsession
..KidZ... said (1:51 PM):
i feel like a groupie now
no different from the others
and no special from the others too
i shldn't do this
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (1:59 PM):
hahahahahahahahaha
welcome to my world
...KidZ... said (1:52 PM):
Haiz~
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:00 PM):
hehehehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:01 PM):
kinda makes u feel a little reckless don't it?
...KidZ... said (1:53 PM):
nti ya nemu...ketawa jak ya....and the next...he will forget
i feel like deluded moron
why im doing ths?
...KidZ... said (1:54 PM):
the more i read about him over the net....the more i feel nothing special
i mean...im nothing special
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:03 PM):
bcuz of an obsession
...KidZ... said (1:55 PM):
some ppl even said, "my bradley" and i feel like "ewwww...."
and he never google
i need to get rid of this obsession
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:03 PM):
lols...
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
other ppl say that Jack is theirs, but i know that i have to share him with the rest of the world
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
but u knw wht...i have a bad feeling about this
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
it's their nature of business
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
Haiz~
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
bad feeling about wat?
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
yea..we need to share them with the whole world
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:05 PM):
and that's the only thing stopping me from being too obsessed with this person
i can only have him in my dreams
...KidZ... said (1:57 PM):
last time i liked jonathan brandis so much....at the end ya mati munuh diri
ok...having him in my dream.....ok...gud idea
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:05 PM):
when all else fails, dream a little dream
i know....kinda sad
...KidZ... said (1:57 PM):
but..in real life...i dun think i will do anything even he is right in front of me
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:06 PM):
nt ya nda ulih tegiga ke life partner, we could volunteer
hahahaaha
yeah, i can only have them in my dreams
...KidZ... said (1:58 PM):
nah...u think sida nda tegiga...with everybody claimed to be his
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:07 PM):
its becuz of that they are actually intimidated with the real world
if i were them, i would be too when ppl all over the world thinks that you could be theirs
...KidZ... said (2:00 PM):
nobody will say tht to us
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:08 PM):
its not easy to find someone who's not obsessed with the image that you sell on the media, but who would accept you for urself
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:09 PM):
ur bad habits, ur crude language when u're off the lights...etc
nda senang
aruh ya r-patz madah he finds it diff to keep up
...KidZ... said (2:01 PM):
im not his huge fan..let say nti ya nanya aku, "do u knw who am i? how much u knw me?" i wont be able to answer him
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
of course
...KidZ... said (2:02 PM):
R-Patz nya minta puji
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
nobody would, bcuz they're too full of themselves to begin with
...KidZ... said (2:02 PM):
he just scared tht his fan will runaway
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
hmm....
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:11 PM):
u know how he treated an obsessed fan while in spain?
u shud know since u read bout him
...KidZ... said (2:03 PM):
who?
R-Patz?
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:11 PM):
he took that girl out on a so-called date, talked on and on about how bad his day is
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
sampai indu nyk muak n just leave him
hehehe
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
oh i knw
he took the gal for dinner
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
that was the rudest thing he did which he admitted publicly in an interview
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
hehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
yup
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
u knw
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
that's the one
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
if i were the gal
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
look, i have to be going now
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
i will never leave him
okok
...KidZ... said (2:05 PM):
im a great listener
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
really?
...KidZ... said (2:05 PM):
just listen to him maa
we dun have to do anything
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
hahahahahahaha
gud luck to both of you then
hihihihihihi
...KidZ... said (2:06 PM):
ayoo
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
i go off first, need to go for lunch, then look back at the accounts statements
...KidZ... said (2:06 PM):
i dun like R-Patz
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
hehehehee
take it easy, cya when i get back from lunch
i'd like to continue this discussion again after
...KidZ... said (2:07 PM):
kk
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (1:54 PM):
eh, i go make phone call first before i leave
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
hehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
why?
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
i go off first, need to go for lunch, then look back at the accounts statements
hehehehee
...KidZ... said (2:14 PM):
kk
i feel like a groupie now
no different from the others
and no special from the others too
i shldn't do this
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (1:59 PM):
hahahahahahahahaha
welcome to my world
...KidZ... said (1:52 PM):
Haiz~
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:00 PM):
hehehehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:01 PM):
kinda makes u feel a little reckless don't it?
...KidZ... said (1:53 PM):
nti ya nemu...ketawa jak ya....and the next...he will forget
i feel like deluded moron
why im doing ths?
...KidZ... said (1:54 PM):
the more i read about him over the net....the more i feel nothing special
i mean...im nothing special
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:03 PM):
bcuz of an obsession
...KidZ... said (1:55 PM):
some ppl even said, "my bradley" and i feel like "ewwww...."
and he never google
i need to get rid of this obsession
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:03 PM):
lols...
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
other ppl say that Jack is theirs, but i know that i have to share him with the rest of the world
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
but u knw wht...i have a bad feeling about this
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
it's their nature of business
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
Haiz~
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
bad feeling about wat?
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
yea..we need to share them with the whole world
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:05 PM):
and that's the only thing stopping me from being too obsessed with this person
i can only have him in my dreams
...KidZ... said (1:57 PM):
last time i liked jonathan brandis so much....at the end ya mati munuh diri
ok...having him in my dream.....ok...gud idea
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:05 PM):
when all else fails, dream a little dream
i know....kinda sad
...KidZ... said (1:57 PM):
but..in real life...i dun think i will do anything even he is right in front of me
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:06 PM):
nt ya nda ulih tegiga ke life partner, we could volunteer
hahahaaha
yeah, i can only have them in my dreams
...KidZ... said (1:58 PM):
nah...u think sida nda tegiga...with everybody claimed to be his
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:07 PM):
its becuz of that they are actually intimidated with the real world
if i were them, i would be too when ppl all over the world thinks that you could be theirs
...KidZ... said (2:00 PM):
nobody will say tht to us
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:08 PM):
its not easy to find someone who's not obsessed with the image that you sell on the media, but who would accept you for urself
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:09 PM):
ur bad habits, ur crude language when u're off the lights...etc
nda senang
aruh ya r-patz madah he finds it diff to keep up
...KidZ... said (2:01 PM):
im not his huge fan..let say nti ya nanya aku, "do u knw who am i? how much u knw me?" i wont be able to answer him
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
of course
...KidZ... said (2:02 PM):
R-Patz nya minta puji
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
nobody would, bcuz they're too full of themselves to begin with
...KidZ... said (2:02 PM):
he just scared tht his fan will runaway
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
hmm....
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:11 PM):
u know how he treated an obsessed fan while in spain?
u shud know since u read bout him
...KidZ... said (2:03 PM):
who?
R-Patz?
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:11 PM):
he took that girl out on a so-called date, talked on and on about how bad his day is
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
sampai indu nyk muak n just leave him
hehehe
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
oh i knw
he took the gal for dinner
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
that was the rudest thing he did which he admitted publicly in an interview
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
hehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
yup
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
u knw
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
that's the one
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
if i were the gal
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
look, i have to be going now
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
i will never leave him
okok
...KidZ... said (2:05 PM):
im a great listener
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
really?
...KidZ... said (2:05 PM):
just listen to him maa
we dun have to do anything
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
hahahahahahaha
gud luck to both of you then
hihihihihihi
...KidZ... said (2:06 PM):
ayoo
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
i go off first, need to go for lunch, then look back at the accounts statements
...KidZ... said (2:06 PM):
i dun like R-Patz
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
hehehehee
take it easy, cya when i get back from lunch
i'd like to continue this discussion again after
...KidZ... said (2:07 PM):
kk
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (1:54 PM):
eh, i go make phone call first before i leave
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
hehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
why?
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
i go off first, need to go for lunch, then look back at the accounts statements
hehehehee
...KidZ... said (2:14 PM):
kk
Monday, March 22, 2010
All Around The World!!!
I'm start counting now. Having a crazy conversation with Siput this afternoon. I just suggested to her, why don't we go traveling since we're both single. And she laughed at me, and she said she had a bad thinking, "And come back with a man?" And i was thinking....why not?
So we were start talking about which destination we should go first, and I was like , "London!" And she added, "New York, Rome and Paris." Yea....sounds great.
So we plan for 12 days trips. And....plan to go during spring time on 2012. I need to feel the environment, the air, in other countries. And we need to start saving the money for this purpose.
First of all, what we'll need are:- 1). Passport 2) Need to check for hotel and other accommodations - do we need to stay near the airport or in the center of the city? 3) how about the laptop? we must make sure no pirated software was installed. 4) electronic travel authority? 5) traveling package?
Siput already came out with the first budget :- hotel + flight + (travel package) = RM5326. Not bad....we'll still need to look for other package. And....must do more researches for London City! I'm gonna start it when "the line is clear". :P
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Argghhh......i need some inspirations!!!
Yesterday i asked Siput to give me any suggestions as I was lack of ideas. So she said, "Why not looking at the cute guys photos?" Oh...alright....I have no idea how does cute guy looks like. :P So I asked her to suggest a few names to me. So she said Gaspard Ulliel, Thomas Sturridge, Kevin Zegers. And asked me to look for Androgynous word.
Now I have a free time and looking for those things up there. First : Androgynous. Ewww.....I get 2 definitions : 1st : Biology having both female and male characteristics; hermaphroditic. 2nd : Being neither distinguishably masculine nor feminine, as in dress, appearance or behavior.
Errr.....sounds like 'bi' again. I bet tonite I'm gonna get another nightmare again. Haiz~
For the cute guys - Gaspard Ulliel - Orait...not bad...can consider cute, Thomas Sturridge - Err.....not my type maybe? He is a buddy of R-Patz. Errr....Why I can't get rid of R-Patz from my mind? No way I like him! To be honest i even dream of him the other day : Not a good dream tho', as I slapped his face and yelled at him. Alright....maybe before I slept that time, i read about him, he hide under the table! Okay....to be honest that was a cheap publicity. You choose to be a celebrity, and that become your life already. You can't say you dont want to meet your fans then! Hypocrite!!! Somemore talking about worrying if the Twilight Saga series end...and the fans will forget him. Celebrities life is always like that. It's like a ball....today you are on top....the next day you will roll down to bottom. Now you're still young and good-looking, next day another young and good-looking new celebrities will come and fans will forget about you. Lol!
I don't like to be famous in the way celebrities did. I want to be famous like....maybe Albert Einstein, Alexander the Great etc.
Back to original topic, Thomas Sturridge - nope....as he is R-Patz's friend? :P And Last one Kevin Zegers - Hmm....nope. Not him. So now.....anymore cute looking guys to introduce to me? I need more inspirations! I'm stuck with my story.
Now I have a free time and looking for those things up there. First : Androgynous. Ewww.....I get 2 definitions : 1st : Biology having both female and male characteristics; hermaphroditic. 2nd : Being neither distinguishably masculine nor feminine, as in dress, appearance or behavior.
Errr.....sounds like 'bi' again. I bet tonite I'm gonna get another nightmare again. Haiz~
For the cute guys - Gaspard Ulliel - Orait...not bad...can consider cute, Thomas Sturridge - Err.....not my type maybe? He is a buddy of R-Patz. Errr....Why I can't get rid of R-Patz from my mind? No way I like him! To be honest i even dream of him the other day : Not a good dream tho', as I slapped his face and yelled at him. Alright....maybe before I slept that time, i read about him, he hide under the table! Okay....to be honest that was a cheap publicity. You choose to be a celebrity, and that become your life already. You can't say you dont want to meet your fans then! Hypocrite!!! Somemore talking about worrying if the Twilight Saga series end...and the fans will forget him. Celebrities life is always like that. It's like a ball....today you are on top....the next day you will roll down to bottom. Now you're still young and good-looking, next day another young and good-looking new celebrities will come and fans will forget about you. Lol!
I don't like to be famous in the way celebrities did. I want to be famous like....maybe Albert Einstein, Alexander the Great etc.
Back to original topic, Thomas Sturridge - nope....as he is R-Patz's friend? :P And Last one Kevin Zegers - Hmm....nope. Not him. So now.....anymore cute looking guys to introduce to me? I need more inspirations! I'm stuck with my story.
Weird Dream
It's been a while. :P Last night was so funny. Siput and I was having a chat about les, gay and bi. We were talking about some celebrities and I even mentioned about Mr. 2 Bon Clay in One Piece. He is a queer err....the "akua", but he has a delicious body or I called bodilicious. Lol!
Then I told Siput that last time I had frens who are les and she said that she has a feeling that I like queer things. ZzzZzz....And i replied her and said...They are interesting. Lol! I'm not a les. But then, I end up by telling her that maybe she's right, I'm a queer. I like akua guy, I also like gay. I'm not a prejudice.....as long as they have "good body". Wahahahahaha.....
I went to sleep at 11.30pm last night and before sleep, I told Siput to go sleep too and have a nice dream regarding gay, queer or bi.
But, last night I really had a 'bi' dream. That was...gross...In the dream, I had 1 gal who likes me...and i kinda like her. She has a younger brother and her brother doesnt really approved us. She's kinda like a colleague student. I sent her to door and we were kissing (mouth to mouth) and I hugged her tight...and said, "Be careful at school".
At the same time, I kinda have a fiance (the same guy that I always appear in my dream - the unknown guy). My 'fiance' also hugging and kissing me. The gal doesn't like it. But the guy said, "I have my right to do anything with my fiancee."
Lol! Ewww..that was gross, being kissed by 2 different people. Just wait until i tell Siput later. Hohohoho....
Then I told Siput that last time I had frens who are les and she said that she has a feeling that I like queer things. ZzzZzz....And i replied her and said...They are interesting. Lol! I'm not a les. But then, I end up by telling her that maybe she's right, I'm a queer. I like akua guy, I also like gay. I'm not a prejudice.....as long as they have "good body". Wahahahahaha.....
I went to sleep at 11.30pm last night and before sleep, I told Siput to go sleep too and have a nice dream regarding gay, queer or bi.
But, last night I really had a 'bi' dream. That was...gross...In the dream, I had 1 gal who likes me...and i kinda like her. She has a younger brother and her brother doesnt really approved us. She's kinda like a colleague student. I sent her to door and we were kissing (mouth to mouth) and I hugged her tight...and said, "Be careful at school".
At the same time, I kinda have a fiance (the same guy that I always appear in my dream - the unknown guy). My 'fiance' also hugging and kissing me. The gal doesn't like it. But the guy said, "I have my right to do anything with my fiancee."
Lol! Ewww..that was gross, being kissed by 2 different people. Just wait until i tell Siput later. Hohohoho....
Thursday, March 11, 2010
College Life
It's been a while since I write something here. I was busy writing a new story base on my dream the other day. Last night I already came out with the ending, and now need to edit here and there.
And last 2 days, I dreamt something again. I was in college life. I remember that day was Friday as I remember some told me that the timetable was changed, the first 2 periods will be changed to Biology class and after that will be English Class.
During Biology Class, I was standing at the corridor, waiting for the other classmates to reach. Then I heard a girl calling a guy name, "Con! Con!" Then not far from me, which is downstair (as the building is like a cube so I can see everything clearly from my place) 2 guys, with blue eyes and grey-white color hair (i bet they dye their hair) turned their face toward the girl. The girl was standing at the opposite direction from the guys. One of the guys waved at the girl before they turned their body and walked away.
I laughed to myself, "Wow, like celebrity.."
Then during Art Class, it was my turn to sweep the floor and I was complaining, "Am i the only person who will sweep the whole floor?" Then there was 1 guy came and said, "I will help you." He introduced himself as Mark Edison.
Mark Edison, his name sounds like my classmate during my primary school last time. Lol!
Back to the dream, then after the Art Class, I went to the Music Class. I know that was a Music Class as I could see so many music instruments in that class. When I entered the room, I saw few classmates already there, and I could see a "batman" figure was hanging down on the cabinet in front of me. I took my seat and our music teacher (his face is like Professor Lupin in Harry Potter movies) asked one of the guys that sit at the front to play the guitar.
And I noticed the guy was the same guy that waved toward the girl that called Con. Maybe short form of Conrad or Connor.
He played quite well. And he really looked like a celebrity. Even our music teacher also seemed to be dazzled.
It supposed to be my turn to play the guitar after him but I had no chance as I suddenly woke up. :P
And last 2 days, I dreamt something again. I was in college life. I remember that day was Friday as I remember some told me that the timetable was changed, the first 2 periods will be changed to Biology class and after that will be English Class.
During Biology Class, I was standing at the corridor, waiting for the other classmates to reach. Then I heard a girl calling a guy name, "Con! Con!" Then not far from me, which is downstair (as the building is like a cube so I can see everything clearly from my place) 2 guys, with blue eyes and grey-white color hair (i bet they dye their hair) turned their face toward the girl. The girl was standing at the opposite direction from the guys. One of the guys waved at the girl before they turned their body and walked away.
I laughed to myself, "Wow, like celebrity.."
Then during Art Class, it was my turn to sweep the floor and I was complaining, "Am i the only person who will sweep the whole floor?" Then there was 1 guy came and said, "I will help you." He introduced himself as Mark Edison.
Mark Edison, his name sounds like my classmate during my primary school last time. Lol!
Back to the dream, then after the Art Class, I went to the Music Class. I know that was a Music Class as I could see so many music instruments in that class. When I entered the room, I saw few classmates already there, and I could see a "batman" figure was hanging down on the cabinet in front of me. I took my seat and our music teacher (his face is like Professor Lupin in Harry Potter movies) asked one of the guys that sit at the front to play the guitar.
And I noticed the guy was the same guy that waved toward the girl that called Con. Maybe short form of Conrad or Connor.
He played quite well. And he really looked like a celebrity. Even our music teacher also seemed to be dazzled.
It supposed to be my turn to play the guitar after him but I had no chance as I suddenly woke up. :P
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