Jamming with Siput on 29th May, 2010

Sunday, 30th May, 2010

At church...

At church...

At church...

Window shopping...

Window shopping..

Going out with Siput and her sis. As usual....shopping spree again. Haiz~ I keep spending money. :-( I bought small purse (i think worth it) for rm36.

Jogathon on 13th May 2010

Need to wake up early morning coz need to go to office before 5.45am. Reach office suddenly feel stomachache. I hate this feeling, everytime big event comes out, I will always attacked by the 'butterflies' inside my stomach. Hahahaha....

After Jogathon, while chatting with some of the colleagues, I saw Remy. Didn't expect him to appear there also. So we took picture together. Went back home around 7.30am, then at noon time, went to longhouse in Pasai area together with Mr. Jin, Sharon and Angela.

My legs started to feel cramp. The next day cant even climb down the stair without supporting. Really ZzzZzz....

I think a lot maybe?

Today is a happy day for me, but yesterday I felt a bit down. I guess i think so much about everything. Yesterday I went outstation together with Angela and boss. Luckily that was a day trip. Personally, I like the place and also the staff. I admit that i really enjoyed giving 'lecture'. And I guarantee everybody was having fun. At one point i kept laughing non-stop especially the time when i tried to draw the fronds and also the fruits. And they even giving me a stupid answer when I showed the picture of 'safety seal'. ZzzZzz...They said Pregnancy test! Hahahahaha..

I also mad at boss coz he broke the promise. He left me with the Indonesian workers and I was the one who had to 'talk' to the Indonesian workers....with my broken Indonesian language. Really ZzzZzz...

When reached home in the evening, suddenly I felt sad. I saw that 'the guy' did online in the morning and he wrote something on his FB wall, and then he wrote something on his friend wall too, telling the gal that hope they can meet up at the KLIA later. Not that I felt jealous or whatever, just i felt sad coz he didnt write anything to me. At last i end up by answering the quizzes in FB before sleep.

Today, I feel happy. Hehehe.... 'That guy' is always full of surprise. This is how i describe about him. Whenever I feel opposite about him, he will show the opposite from what i thought. Like I thought that he will never think of me, but when I read his wall, i noticed that he "likes" my post. Yea..i know it was nothing but it was something too. He clicked "like the post", the post is regarding the quiz that i took...When will i get married and the result is at age 40.

I remember what Panda said, "he still care about you even if he just write something on your wall." Yea....meaning he still care to read my wall. Hehehehe.... :P

And Siput said something like maybe he doesnt want to be so clingy or else other people will notice that something going on. Hmm....maybe... Or maybe he also waiting for me to write something to him? But at the end i did write a private message to him, I just asking how is Korea, then saying that I noticed he always online early in the morning. And then i told him about my activities for the week. It's kinda lame. ZzzZzz....

And...I wonder why when he posted something on his wall and I'm the first one to comment it (my first time to comment actually), nobody will comment anything next. Really ZzzZzz....Am i so hateful?

No matter what....I'm feeling happy...Just like he can read my mind. :P

"What does the Bible say about drinking alcohol / wine? Is it a sin for a Christian to drink alcohol / wine?"

Answer: Scripture has much to say regarding the drinking of alcohol (Leviticus 10:9; Numbers 6:3; Deuteronomy 29:6; Judges 13:4, 7, 14; Proverbs 20:1; 31:4; Isaiah 5:11, 22; 24:9; 28:7; 29:9; 56:12). However, Scripture does not necessarily forbid a Christian from drinking beer, wine, or any other drink containing alcohol. In fact, some Scriptures discuss alcohol in positive terms. Ecclesiastes 9:7 instructs, “Drink your wine with a merry heart.” Psalm 104:14-15 states that God gives wine “that makes glad the heart of men.” Amos 9:14 discusses drinking wine from your own vineyard as a sign of God’s blessing. Isaiah 55:1 encourages, “Yes, come buy wine and milk…”

What God commands Christians regarding alcohol is to avoid drunkenness (Ephesians 5:18). The Bible condemns drunkenness and its effects (Proverbs 23:29-35). Christians are also commanded to not allow their bodies to be “mastered” by anything (1 Corinthians 6:12; 2 Peter 2:19). Drinking alcohol in excess is undeniably addictive. Scripture also forbids a Christian from doing anything that might offend other Christians or encourage them to sin against their conscience (1 Corinthians 8:9-13). In light of these principles, it would be extremely difficult for any Christian to say he is drinking alcohol in excess to the glory of God (1 Corinthians 10:31).

Jesus changed water into wine. It even seems that Jesus drank wine on occasion (John 2:1-11; Matthew 26:29). In New Testament times, the water was not very clean. Without modern sanitation, the water was often filled with bacteria, viruses, and all kinds of contaminants. The same is true in many third-world countries today. As a result, people often drank wine (or grape juice) because it was far less likely to be contaminated. In 1 Timothy 5:23, Paul was instructing Timothy to stop drinking the water (which was probably causing his stomach problems) and instead drink wine. In that day, wine was fermented (containing alcohol), but not necessarily to the degree it is today. It is incorrect to say that it was grape juice, but it is also incorrect to say that it was the same thing as the wine commonly used today. Again, Scripture does not forbid Christians from drinking beer, wine, or any other drink containing alcohol. Alcohol is not, in and of itself, tainted by sin. It is drunkenness and addiction to alcohol that a Christian must absolutely refrain from (Ephesians 5:18; 1 Corinthians 6:12).

Alcohol, consumed in small quantities, is neither harmful nor addictive. In fact, some doctors advocate drinking small amounts of red wine for its health benefits, especially for the heart. Consumption of small quantities of alcohol is a matter of Christian freedom. Drunkenness and addiction are sin. However, due to the biblical concerns regarding alcohol and its effects, due to the easy temptation to consume alcohol in excess, and due to the possibility of causing offense and/or stumbling of others, it is usually best for a Christian to abstain entirely from drinking alcohol.

Haiz~

Seriously, this is not a healthy habit. I need to restrain myself. Stop being a stalker, I should act like I never know him, act like before I know him.

It's kinda funny, the more you know someone, the more you hate yourself coz knowing too much. Oh God, I dunno your intention, but I do hope please stop me from doing all these silly things. I only want the freedom, the happy life, and I have these for few months already, so please don't take it away from me and replace it with something that i cannot carry on my shoulder.

I start questioning myself, why? why me? If being a normal person is so hard until like this, I rather to choose being an alien.

I always do wish that I have my twinz personality in me. I'm trying to act cool but guess it doesnt work. Maybe I need to sleep more...sleep...sleep...sleep...to forget everything.

Just please God.....it's killing me....just please grant me peace in my heart.

It's My Life

Wow....everything is wow today! Yesterday I told Panda about 'that guy' and he suggested to me to check maybe he got FB. At first i told Panda...impossible someone like him will have FB. Anyway, last night I was doing something else, so i forgot about FB. But before sleep last night I already thought of that but too lazy to check.

Only today I tried and yesss...i found him. Well....at first the search come out with so many names.....but dunno why suddenly i think of putting "Sibu" in front and come out with 1 search result...which is him!!!! Woot...

I added him as friend in FB, and after back from work, i checked and he posted something on my wall, "thnx for add.." so i replied, "np. ^^ shalom" and then he replied back "=)"

And at first i thought wanna send private message to him regarding his writing on his wall regarding the sunday church dinner incident. Luckily I havent send the message to him and I saw him online. ^^ So i greeted him first with "shalom". muahahaha....and we chat!

Yes....we talked about the beer incident. Even talking about Epesus 5:18. ZzzZzz....I wonder its kinda weird....as i opened the page and saw the sentence about "perkahwinan di Kana" so I told him about that and he said, "I already predicted you will say that."

Okay...before I forgot, I must write it down here what he thinks about me :-

1. He said he was surprised to see me in FB and he recognized me at once.

2. He said he looked at my camera on Saturday and tried to control his smile but I didnt take his picture. :P

3. He noticed me on Saturday, busy taking photos. (i think he knew a bit about me before....as he said he heard people talking about me always taking photos for church event)

4. On Sunday, he said he almost wanna asked whether I have FB or blog when I mentioned about internet. It just like both of our wish being granted. ^^ So with this I shoot back at him, "Ketentuan Tuhan."

5. He asked whether I'm single or not. Hahahaha.....Dont ask my age, but I bet he knew. :P

6. The chatroom in FB down but we still chatting via private message in FB. It's funny when he told me one gal doesnt know who he is...asking him to serve the 'drink'. Hahahaha.....

7. He said once he back from Korea, I can chat about anything with him. Hmm.....just like he's making another 'date' with me? O.o

8. Last thing, he promised he will buy something for me from Korea. O.o (woot....really...???)

9. Oh, speaking of chatting, asking, sharing, discussing with him, he asked why I didnt ask/talk to him while he was in front of me instead of chatting in FB? <--i ignored his question. :P

Yea...i guess God has His own intention. Siput....remember I told you that I had him in my dream? Some more continuously dreaming of him....it's really connected to him. Same wish.... Hahahaha....Noo...I wont give him my blog page, or else he will read all these writings.

Tomorrow he will go to Korea for 1 week....till then I wont contact him....and see these will lead to what next. But he did mention to me, he will always go from one place to one place as God's servant. ^^

Monday Comes!!!

It's Monday again. What a boring day tho' I have many works waiting for me. :P While breakfast this morning, colleagues asked whether I will make open house during Gawai. I was planning on that but not so sure tho' as mom will go to Miri. I just so lazy whenever i think of cleaning the whole house and alone!!!!

Talking about last weekend, indeed I had a happy and enjoyable weekend. Friday night, I went to the church to 'rehearsal' after visiting David's wife and the new born baby. At church, I tried to play the drums. Hahaha, dont get me wrong, actually that was the first time I play the drums. :P

On Saturday, I guess I slept the whole day, and evening we went to the church to attend Jesselyn's wedding ceremony. That was the best day of the week, I joined mom and friends poco-poco until sweating. Hahaha.... I was pretty good even that's the first time I tried poco-poco. (Zzz.....the most important thing is the step. Not so hard to learn tho'.)

Okay....straight to the point, actually I had a little crush on someone. Hahaha.... The guy is the best man. I don't really bother, until....Sunday. :P Anyway, he also joining us singing. After the ceremony at the church, we went to the bride's house. I guess I drank a lot that night. The best part is, all the ladies inside the house and the guys outside, so we can enjoy to the fullest without guys disturb us. I prefer it that way, as I dont like the guys. Hahaha...I couldnt see the guy that I crush on but bet he's downstair, sitting together with my dad.

On Sunday, mom asking me to join her having lunch at the bride's house. I met the guy again. I think here I started to notice him. He sat in front of me and nope, I dont bother to stare at him. Hahaha..... And he 'blessed' the foods for us. Ahh......what a wonderful voice. It's been a long time I didnt hear someone who can say a prayer like that. He has a husky voice, really makes him look matured. Hahaha.....I'm a silly gal who always fall for someone like that. ZzzZzz...

The best part was after lunch and we all sitting in the living room, chatting. Then mom told her friends (and he also listening) that I 'lecturing' her the other day. Mom's friends said, "Because your children loves you." Glad that the guy agreed too. :P

Then evening time, we went for dinner at Li Hua Hotel. The guy also coming! And at first i thought he sat at table No. 13 but then just realized that he sat next to my table, in fact only behind me. :P But nah, guess he didnt notice me, but he really has a good manner....with the elders. ZzzZzz.... Hahaha....I will always fall for someone like that. Nah, guess he just respected my parents as they are part of the important person in church. ZzzZzz.... And he didnt (not even once) shake hands with me even I was standing next to him. ZzzZzz....

And what did you do in front of the guy that you like? Go drinking beers!!!! And laughing like crazy together with mom and friends!!! And also get up and dance on the stage!!! Hohoho.....I already gave bad impression. Just wonder how does it feels to have a couple as someone who will become a 'pastor' in future. Hahaha.... Nope....I'm definitely not made for him as I'm the 'evil' one and he is the 'angel' one.

I thought good guy doesn't exist anymore. Haiz~ Too bad good guys will never like me...because....apparently, they are all very young. :P

Orait...time to continue my work. Ciao!