My Diary...

Yesterday he called me and we talked for 58 minutes 18 seconds. The day before we talked for 1 hour 57 minutes 16 seconds.

It's always a warm feeling whenever I talked to him. And yesterday he sounded so sad and down. He told me that he told his mom about us and when his mom heard that I'm from Sarawak, she said NO. She said about too far, and talked about money spending issue.

See....3 obstacles that we need to confront...I put 'the distance' in No.3 and yet that's already the biggest issue for her mom. I wonder what happen when she knows the No. 1 and No. 2 obstacles that I listed down? Haiz~

Terharu and I almost cried when he told me that he told his mom, "Kalau saya nak kahwin, kena ada restu dari mak juga." And his mom didn't say a word. He's a good son. Just imagine if i'm in his situation and my parents oppose me, I'll bet I'm going to take rebel.

I hope everything is going to be alright. I really pity him. He has to confront the situation alone. And yesterday he asked me, "Do you still love me?" And I answered, "Of coz I still love you." Sayang don't worry that, no matter what, you still the best. Even if we have no jodoh, I will still love you because...so far you're the best and different from the others.

So lucky the girl that marry you someday....and I'm going to slap that girl if she doesn't know how to appreciate you. And I'm going to be jealous too... *cries* Just wish that the lucky girl is me.

:: Reasons Why I Like Him ::

He's a good guy

He's smart

He's religious

He always understand me

He knows how to cheer me up

He's cute in his way

He can play guitar

He is caring

He is so loving

He is soft spoken

He is kind hearted

He has a soft heart; but he is quite stubborn

He always listened to me

He's matured for his age

Sometimes he looks nerd but I like it

He has many friends who like him

He likes what I like

He likes purple

He likes girl's stuff

He's a sensitive guy

He's a coward when it comes to watching horror movie

He can cry; and I wish to comfort him

He's a funny guy

He's a neat guy..all his works are very neat

He's good at drawing

He and his housemates always cook at home

He can help tidy a house

He's a degree holder

He's a teacher

And I love everything about him

But above all....

He loves me so much and I love him as much too..

Because of whoever he is...HE IS STILL THE BEST!!!

Today's Event

:: New hand fan ::

:: Orang Ulu costume that I bought today ::

:: Dinner for tonite; sambal petai, mix vege consist of mushroom and daun sabung and Ikan Jelawat masak asam pedas ::

Agendas for today:

1. 8.30 am go to church

2. 9.30 am go to Kanowit to find orang ulu costume

3. 11.30 am go to Durin and found orang ulu costume, bought it for RM180

4. 12.14 pm, call sayang, he's on the way to Muazam sending sister; driving.

5. Go to Sibu Jaya and bought the bead's hat for RM40 and the necklace RM11.

6. Go Sibu Jaya's market.

7. Reach home around 3pm, and a short while later, aunties and uncle from Miri reached.

8. Go to grandma's house.

9. Go back around 5pm.

10.Right now starving, waiting for dinner, so just login to blog a while and post something.

11.Is missing sayang..but he doesnt know that.

12. Later sis Lucyia will come to my house.

13. Wish that I can sleep or have time with myself, alone.

8.38pm, while waiting for sis Lucyia to come, i look at his pictures that is inside this laptop. Haiz....what happen actually? Does he meant for me? I always pray to God, if he is meant for me, make him closer to me but if he is not meant for me, just comfort me so that I can accept my fate. But how come, the feeling is getting stronger? Why I keep thinking of him? And why when I look at his pictures, make me miss him so much? This is really crazy...it seems like I'm the one that is so hopeless, so 'angau'....hahaha...just like a shadow lover. Weh....like this cannot be....I can't let him know about this. He might laugh at me. People said if we love somebody, reserve 60% for ourselves. How about me? How many percent I reserved for myself? Seems like none to me. Haiz...

I don't know how much he loves me, and no matter what he told me, I still don't know whether to believe it or not. Coz, right now, seems like i'm the shadow lover type. Wahahahahaha.....So scary....Seriously cannot let him know about this.

We both still waiting for his parents approval also. I wonder what's the result. He seems so busy to tell his parents also. Age gap, religion, and distance...3 factors as the obstacles.

Sometimes when I thought that, "Nah...he doesnt loves me".....he sure will call me...seems like he can read my mind....can read that actually at that moment I miss him and think of him. Weird right? Today is not the exception as well....just about when i think of him, he straight call me and said that he couldn't sms me.

The best part last time was on 10th May, when suddenly that afternoon, I missed him so much and kept thinking of him, and even pictured him in my mind. Crazy huh? And not long after that, he sms me, "Me:Can i pray that ukm will accept if i leave her or she meet a man that better than me, AND we can be together. Raymona: Yes" <-- That really sounded crazy coz he also monologued with himself. And that night he really break up with the UKM girl.

The more I know him, the more I can't get rid of him from my mind. This might not be the 1st experience for me, but this time is totally different from the previous experienced. The first time I'm having someone with the same thought with me! Like he said, "Talking to you just like talking to another me". Missing him is like missing myself. Real crazy right? But that's the fact.

But still, the best moment that I will never forget was during the potluck day. That's the first time he really treated me like his real gf. Yes, indeed....I still can pictured the moment, I still can pictured people around us, how surprised they were that time, hahahaha.....and he really....ah....can't say it in word....but i can say...i fall in love with him once again that time.

Who said only with 'sex' or 'intimate' relationship then you can love that person so much until night and day also keep thinking of that person? Nope....we both prove that tho' without touching each other, the feeling of loving, missing, thinking each other still so strong. And do you believe that...even until now we never hold hands. Wahahahahaha....well...the Tioman Trip under the sea was an exception.

My housemates said that I'm so lucky...eh..no....so geng, so hebat to have him as my bf....and they labelled him as 'Mr.Nice Guy'. But I did pray to God to grant me someone like him also. But does he really that Mr.Nice Guy or Mr.Innocent? I dont think so. The way he msg his girl friends in FB, the way he talked to the girl at that restaurant, during K.O.T when he talked to my batch, during KOAM seminar when he played with Ana's handbag, they both seems like flirting each other that time...not to mention how he react with his ex-gf. Conclusion...he's not that Mr.Innocent. Just that both of us, when see each other, we restrain ourselves to go further. Weird right? How come? *Shrug* I don't know the answer.

I always wanted to ask him about all these.....why with me is different....but why I couldn't say the words? And he told me..he really protect our relationship. And he said, the more we never hold each other hands, the feeling of missing me growing bigger. Weird?

Anyway....sis Lucyia is coming now. I need to go. Ciao...

My Diary

I really hate writing a diary. Really no motivation at all...but I'll make it short and simple here:-

1. Early morning wake up at 5am and wonder why sayang hasn't call me

2. Around 5am, sms sayang asking if he already started his journey back to his hometown.

3. Sayang called me straight forward, he said he is about to call me also.

4. Go out with mom to get baju kurung for myself, at the end get 1 baju kebaya nyonya (purple color), 1 baju kurung kedah (yellow color) and 1 baju kurung moden (pink maroon color).

5. Around 10am, sms to sayang and he called me, mentioned that he cannot sms only can call out.

6. Go to visit grandma who is sick. She cried when she saw me, and I cried as well. ZzzZzz...

7. Having Laksa Sarawak at Farley FoodCourt. Sms sayang again and he called me back. He said still not yet arrived. I asked him to call me after he reached hometown.

8. 3.22pm, sayang called and said he reached Kuala Terengganu at 3pm. We talked for a while.

9. Auntie (Indai Andy) called mom, and I bet they talked about me. Yerp....I was right, mom told her about my relationship.

10. Msg sayang again and he called me. I told him about the chat. Pheww....my side...everything is alright and goes smoothly. Weird....

11. In a mood of writing my blog tonite and come out with 1 song lyric "The Past Memories".

12. 7.31pm, read msg from sayang that made me smiled, "Dear God, pls make my parents accpt my rltionshp wth raymona n we can get marry soon".

13. A bit nervous waiting for the result. Hahaha....no matter what....i have to accept my fate. Whether his parents can accept me or not....life must goes on and I must keep moving forward. But let say if his parents cannot accept me, it's sure because of the age gap and also the religion issue. So sienz and pity me....haiz~ But I hope God will bless me this time.

14. I hope he won't lie to me no matter what is the result.

15. Good night and ciao~

The Past Memories

I don't know but suddenly I have mood to write a song lyric tonight....

Title : The Past Memories

By : Ray Kidz

The past memories

There was a happy moment

Sometimes bitter

Yet I've been through all

The past memories

I'm here alone

In this empty room

And recall all about you

The past memories

Had you in it

And you told me once

To keep moving forward

The past memories

I'll keep you in my heart

I won't let go of you

'Cause you are my precious memories

Joke..joke

The Silent Treatment

A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day,he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight.

Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 AM " He left it where he knew she would find it.

The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM . Wake up."

Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests.

WIFE VS. HUSBAND

A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word. An earlier discussion had led to an argument and neither of them wanted to concede their position.

As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, "Relatives of yours?"

"Yep," the wife replied , " in-laws"

WOMEN'S REVENGE

"Cash, check or charge?" I asked, after folding items the woman wished to purchase.

As she fumbled for her wallet I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse. "So, do you always carry your TV remote?" I asked. "No," she replied, " but my husband refused to come shopping with me,and I figured this was the most evil thing I could do to him legally."

W O R D S

A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day. 30,000 to a man's 15,000.

The wife replied, "The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men...

The husband then turned to his wife and asked, "What?"

CREATION

A man said to his wife one day, "I don't know how you can be so stupid and so beautiful all at the same time.

" The wife responded, "Allow me to explain.

God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me;

God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you!

WHO DOES WHAT

A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning.

The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first, and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee."

The husband said, " You are in charge of cooking around here and you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee."

Wife replies, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible that the man should do the coffee."

Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me." So she fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testament and showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says

............." HEBREWS"

Contoh Surat Rasmi - Poligami

Hahahaha! Poligami ---- tidak baik untuk kesihatan. Nyau teringat ke contoh menulis surat rasmi SPM ke di email dk sarinya. HAHAHAHAAH! This time JJ write; (Quoted by Siput)

Jelu Jipun

123 Address Dia,

Sibu Sarawak

Suruhanjaya Gereja-Gereja Malaysia

1234 Di mana Sahaja

KL

Tarikh: Somewhere in 2011

PERKARA: PERMOHONAN UNTUK BERPOLIGAMI SUPAYA DILULUSKAN OLEH PIHAK GEREJA

Tuan,

Perkara di atas adalah dirujuk.

2. Sebab utama permohonan ini dilakukan adalah kerana kuota yang diberi oleh pihak tuan pada peringkat ini tidak mencukupi untuk menampung permintaan terhadap saya selaku seorang insan yang bergelar lelaki. Permintaan yang tinggi ke atas seseorang yang bergelar lelaki ini lah yang mendorong saya untuk memohon untuk berpoligami kerana insan yang bergelar lelaki pada zaman sekarang semakin berkurangan biar di pasaran tempatan mahupun di pasaran global.

3. Memandangkan konsumer tempatan yang tidak berdaya saing dengan konsumer global, saya ingin mengajukan permohonan ini ke peringkat yang seterusnya agar saya boleh memperkembangkan bakat yang saya miliki ini untuk dikongsi dengan konsumer-konsumer di seluruh dunia. Dengan itu, saya juga ingin memohon imuniti bagi pihak saya supaya tidak dikecam oleh pihak gereja di tempat lain. Dengan kelulusan yang diberi oleh pihak tuan, kita dapat menyelamatkan dunia ini daripada ancaman kepupusan kerana kekurangan jumlah lelaki berbanding perempuan.

4. Segala kerjasama daripada pihak tuan saya dahulukan dengan ucapan ribuan terima kasih. Saya amat berharap pihak tuan meluluskan permohonan saya ini dengan secepat mungkin kerana nyawa, jiwa dan raga saya berada di dalam tangan pihak tuan. Dengan ini, saya lampirkan dokumen-dokumen permohonan dan surat-surat kahwin saya untuk tandatangan pihak tuan.

Akhir kata, saya berharap pihak tuan meluluskan permohonan ini agar saya dan insan-insan lelaki lain yang seperti saya dapat membendung bencana ancaman kepupusan di dunia ini. Sekian terima kasih.

"BERSEDIA BERKONGSI UNTUK DUNIA"

Yang Memohon,

Jelu Jipun.

Can You Sleep While The Wind Blows?

Years ago, a farmer owned land along the Atlantic seacoast.

He constantly advertised for hired hands. Most people were

reluctant to work on farms along the Atlantic. They dreaded the

awful storms that raged across the Atlantic, wreaking havoc on the buildings and crops.

As the farmer interviewed applicants for the job, he received

A steady stream of refusals.

Finally, a short, thin man, well past middle age, approached

the farmer. "Are you a good farm hand?" the farmer asked him.

"Well, I can sleep when the wind blows," answered the little man.

Although puzzled by this answer, the farmer, desperate for help,

Hired him. The little man worked well around the farm, busy from

dawn to dusk, and the farmer felt satisfied with the man's work.

Then one night the wind howled loudly in from offshore.

Jumping out of bed, the farmer grabbed a lantern and rushed

next door to the hired hand's sleeping quarters. He shook the

little man and yelled, "Get up! A storm is coming!

Tie things down before they blow away!"

The little man rolled over in bed and said firmly, "No

sir. I told you, I can sleep when the wind blows."

Enraged by the response, the farmer was tempted to fire him on

the spot. Instead, he hurried outside to prepare for the storm.

To his amazement, he discovered that all of the haystacks had

been covered with tarpaulins. The cows were in the barn, the chickens were in the coops, and the doors were barred.

The shutters were tightly secured. Everything was tied down.

Nothing could blow away. The farmer then understood what his

hired hand meant, so he returned to his bed to also sleep while

the wind blew.

Moral of this Story

When you're prepared, spiritually, mentally, and physically,

you have nothing to fear. Can you sleep when the

wind blows through your life?

The hired hand in the story was able to sleep because he

had secured the farm against the storm.

We secure ourselves against the storms of life by

grounding ourselves in the Word of God.

We don't need to understand, we just need to hold

His hand to have peace in the middle of storms.

GOD BLESS US ALL!