I just feel like i wanna write something here...maybe just to kill my boredom. Gawai....i'm not sure whether it's a good idea for me. I'm trying to forget someone, i tried to be happy and to enjoy myself, but yet my mind still thinking of him. I just wonder how is he now? How is his Gawai celebration? I'm not suppose to think of this as i bet he will never think of me. Does he? Hmm....
Yesterday was a happy day. My colleagues came to visit my house, and then we went to Angela's and Sharon's house. Super full!!! Then when i reached home, mom called me and asked me to join them. We really having fun....i mean having fun as in singing. This year i was surprised with myself.....i dont drink much....i guess....i only drink 1 glass of beer (that's becoz mom cant finish her) and half small cup of tuak.
Maybe I am so obsessed with him right now? Everywhere I go, his visual keeps lingering, plus everybody around me also someone he knows. Especially when I saw Payung's sister, Philomena, really remind me of him. Last time i remember he told me during Youth Camp, they played one game...they need to write down someone name that they hate, and Philo wrote his name on a piece of paper. And the reason was, becoz he is a playboy. Lol! Then he also told me that last time Philo invited him to her house. Hmm.... But he told me he didnt go.
Well, the youth must be closed to him, and thats why whenever i saw them, always remind me of him. :-(
I talked to Pauline about him (i didnt mention his name) just now....and Pauline said, "Don't rush....trust the love.." Yes.....thats what i'm suppose to do. After all, i know he will look for me. (Are you sure?) Hmm.....pretty much sure.....but if he doesnt, then on 17th I must sms to him, well....it's up to him whether he wanna go out with me or not. Plus he promised me to join me during Sport Day. Will he keeps the promise? Hmm....
Sometimes i think, i think so much.....why cant i have a simple minded like Luffy? :-(
It's okay....it's alright.....everything gonna be fine. What i need to do now is.....act like normal....do my routine like i never met him before...play guitar, chat with friends, play games, sleep, read story books. Ahhh....what a simple life i have. ^^
God.....please grant me peace in my mind. Okay..okay....i cant lie to myself....I miss him. Lol! It's weird.....already met him, already went out with him, but yet when i reached home, i still miss him. And today, it's a 3 days in a row that i had him in my dream. 1st dream, i asked him why he comes back so early from his longhouse. 2nd day dream, i just saw him but cant remember the chat. 3rd day dream, last nite, i dream of, inside his house. I talked to his mom, and was surprised coz he invites me to his house. Yes, i can see his inside house clearly.....i wonder does it looks the same in real life? Someday i must check it out. :P
Today, i will go to longhouse. Will take lot of pictures. ^^
Eh....weird, yesterday i think a lot about him.....and i had this 'seilu-ilu' feeling. But how come today no more that kind of feeling? Hmm.....did he think of me too yesterday? Hmm....
