Chatted with Siput just now. I dunno how many times i need to deny this. I said I don't like R-Patz, yet he keeps appear in my dream.
Maybe I've been unfair to him. I shouldn't hate him. And I like Bradley, but now I feel like no different from the others. I already turned into a groupie.
Don't know what happen to me today. I'm so much into London, and now, I might not be able to go there, at least not in a decade!
Siput told me that we might start with the nearest location first, maybe Thailand, Australia, China, Japan, Indonesia. I dream of London almost everyday! What am i suppose to do?
But life isn't fair. It leaves us with no choice. I wish I can do more in this life. I want to travel all around the world, and learn about the others culture.
And i'm thinking of some miracles. I kept asking my friends (few friends like Siput and Panda), "Are there any miracles in this world?" And both of them answered me, "Of coz." But how come I don't feel any?
I'm waiting...and still waiting...I'm lurking...and still lurking....
Just i hope i have this strength if someday I'm gonna meet Bradley. And I might wish "all the best" to R-Patz too. Just hope that, hmm....I can't say it...haiz~ I really need to get rid of this obsession! I'm no different from the others now. I'm nothing special now....and they know that.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
I need to get over this obsession
..KidZ... said (1:51 PM):
i feel like a groupie now
no different from the others
and no special from the others too
i shldn't do this
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (1:59 PM):
hahahahahahahahaha
welcome to my world
...KidZ... said (1:52 PM):
Haiz~
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:00 PM):
hehehehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:01 PM):
kinda makes u feel a little reckless don't it?
...KidZ... said (1:53 PM):
nti ya nemu...ketawa jak ya....and the next...he will forget
i feel like deluded moron
why im doing ths?
...KidZ... said (1:54 PM):
the more i read about him over the net....the more i feel nothing special
i mean...im nothing special
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:03 PM):
bcuz of an obsession
...KidZ... said (1:55 PM):
some ppl even said, "my bradley" and i feel like "ewwww...."
and he never google
i need to get rid of this obsession
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:03 PM):
lols...
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
other ppl say that Jack is theirs, but i know that i have to share him with the rest of the world
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
but u knw wht...i have a bad feeling about this
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
it's their nature of business
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
Haiz~
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
bad feeling about wat?
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
yea..we need to share them with the whole world
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:05 PM):
and that's the only thing stopping me from being too obsessed with this person
i can only have him in my dreams
...KidZ... said (1:57 PM):
last time i liked jonathan brandis so much....at the end ya mati munuh diri
ok...having him in my dream.....ok...gud idea
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:05 PM):
when all else fails, dream a little dream
i know....kinda sad
...KidZ... said (1:57 PM):
but..in real life...i dun think i will do anything even he is right in front of me
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:06 PM):
nt ya nda ulih tegiga ke life partner, we could volunteer
hahahaaha
yeah, i can only have them in my dreams
...KidZ... said (1:58 PM):
nah...u think sida nda tegiga...with everybody claimed to be his
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:07 PM):
its becuz of that they are actually intimidated with the real world
if i were them, i would be too when ppl all over the world thinks that you could be theirs
...KidZ... said (2:00 PM):
nobody will say tht to us
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:08 PM):
its not easy to find someone who's not obsessed with the image that you sell on the media, but who would accept you for urself
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:09 PM):
ur bad habits, ur crude language when u're off the lights...etc
nda senang
aruh ya r-patz madah he finds it diff to keep up
...KidZ... said (2:01 PM):
im not his huge fan..let say nti ya nanya aku, "do u knw who am i? how much u knw me?" i wont be able to answer him
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
of course
...KidZ... said (2:02 PM):
R-Patz nya minta puji
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
nobody would, bcuz they're too full of themselves to begin with
...KidZ... said (2:02 PM):
he just scared tht his fan will runaway
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
hmm....
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:11 PM):
u know how he treated an obsessed fan while in spain?
u shud know since u read bout him
...KidZ... said (2:03 PM):
who?
R-Patz?
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:11 PM):
he took that girl out on a so-called date, talked on and on about how bad his day is
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
sampai indu nyk muak n just leave him
hehehe
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
oh i knw
he took the gal for dinner
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
that was the rudest thing he did which he admitted publicly in an interview
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
hehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
yup
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
u knw
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
that's the one
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
if i were the gal
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
look, i have to be going now
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
i will never leave him
okok
...KidZ... said (2:05 PM):
im a great listener
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
really?
...KidZ... said (2:05 PM):
just listen to him maa
we dun have to do anything
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
hahahahahahaha
gud luck to both of you then
hihihihihihi
...KidZ... said (2:06 PM):
ayoo
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
i go off first, need to go for lunch, then look back at the accounts statements
...KidZ... said (2:06 PM):
i dun like R-Patz
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
hehehehee
take it easy, cya when i get back from lunch
i'd like to continue this discussion again after
...KidZ... said (2:07 PM):
kk
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (1:54 PM):
eh, i go make phone call first before i leave
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
hehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
why?
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
i go off first, need to go for lunch, then look back at the accounts statements
hehehehee
...KidZ... said (2:14 PM):
kk
i feel like a groupie now
no different from the others
and no special from the others too
i shldn't do this
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (1:59 PM):
hahahahahahahahaha
welcome to my world
...KidZ... said (1:52 PM):
Haiz~
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:00 PM):
hehehehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:01 PM):
kinda makes u feel a little reckless don't it?
...KidZ... said (1:53 PM):
nti ya nemu...ketawa jak ya....and the next...he will forget
i feel like deluded moron
why im doing ths?
...KidZ... said (1:54 PM):
the more i read about him over the net....the more i feel nothing special
i mean...im nothing special
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:03 PM):
bcuz of an obsession
...KidZ... said (1:55 PM):
some ppl even said, "my bradley" and i feel like "ewwww...."
and he never google
i need to get rid of this obsession
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:03 PM):
lols...
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
other ppl say that Jack is theirs, but i know that i have to share him with the rest of the world
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
but u knw wht...i have a bad feeling about this
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
it's their nature of business
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
Haiz~
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:04 PM):
bad feeling about wat?
...KidZ... said (1:56 PM):
yea..we need to share them with the whole world
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:05 PM):
and that's the only thing stopping me from being too obsessed with this person
i can only have him in my dreams
...KidZ... said (1:57 PM):
last time i liked jonathan brandis so much....at the end ya mati munuh diri
ok...having him in my dream.....ok...gud idea
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:05 PM):
when all else fails, dream a little dream
i know....kinda sad
...KidZ... said (1:57 PM):
but..in real life...i dun think i will do anything even he is right in front of me
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:06 PM):
nt ya nda ulih tegiga ke life partner, we could volunteer
hahahaaha
yeah, i can only have them in my dreams
...KidZ... said (1:58 PM):
nah...u think sida nda tegiga...with everybody claimed to be his
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:07 PM):
its becuz of that they are actually intimidated with the real world
if i were them, i would be too when ppl all over the world thinks that you could be theirs
...KidZ... said (2:00 PM):
nobody will say tht to us
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:08 PM):
its not easy to find someone who's not obsessed with the image that you sell on the media, but who would accept you for urself
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:09 PM):
ur bad habits, ur crude language when u're off the lights...etc
nda senang
aruh ya r-patz madah he finds it diff to keep up
...KidZ... said (2:01 PM):
im not his huge fan..let say nti ya nanya aku, "do u knw who am i? how much u knw me?" i wont be able to answer him
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
of course
...KidZ... said (2:02 PM):
R-Patz nya minta puji
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
nobody would, bcuz they're too full of themselves to begin with
...KidZ... said (2:02 PM):
he just scared tht his fan will runaway
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:10 PM):
hmm....
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:11 PM):
u know how he treated an obsessed fan while in spain?
u shud know since u read bout him
...KidZ... said (2:03 PM):
who?
R-Patz?
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:11 PM):
he took that girl out on a so-called date, talked on and on about how bad his day is
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
sampai indu nyk muak n just leave him
hehehe
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
oh i knw
he took the gal for dinner
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
that was the rudest thing he did which he admitted publicly in an interview
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
hehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
yup
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
u knw
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
that's the one
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
if i were the gal
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
look, i have to be going now
...KidZ... said (2:04 PM):
i will never leave him
okok
...KidZ... said (2:05 PM):
im a great listener
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
really?
...KidZ... said (2:05 PM):
just listen to him maa
we dun have to do anything
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
hahahahahahaha
gud luck to both of you then
hihihihihihi
...KidZ... said (2:06 PM):
ayoo
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
i go off first, need to go for lunch, then look back at the accounts statements
...KidZ... said (2:06 PM):
i dun like R-Patz
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
hehehehee
take it easy, cya when i get back from lunch
i'd like to continue this discussion again after
...KidZ... said (2:07 PM):
kk
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (1:54 PM):
eh, i go make phone call first before i leave
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:12 PM):
hehehe
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:13 PM):
why?
rachel_racha@hotmail.com said (2:14 PM):
i go off first, need to go for lunch, then look back at the accounts statements
hehehehee
...KidZ... said (2:14 PM):
kk
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