Frustrated??

This week is a happy week for me. Tomorrow we don't have to come to work. Yay! Oh yea...speaking of frustration...actually I'm talking about facebook games; Ninja Saga. :P I thought that once I reached level 20 then i can straight forward upgrade to become a Chuunin but in fact, I need to 'sit' for the Chuunin test. ZzzZzz....4 types of test...I only managed to pass the first test which is a writing test. And for another 3, I'm not sure when can i complete the test. Haiz~ I tried to find some information about these test, and some of them said that you need to be very strong. Hmm....strong mean, you need to buy the good weapon and skills using real money. ZzzZzz....

So i guess, I need to plan for strategy...hmm....it's okay...I think I will start playing MapleStory again.

Hmm....what I'm gonna do tomorrow since tomorrow is a rest day? Wash my cars, clean the aquariums, do the laundry and maybe I will go out? Hahahaha...

I'm craving for some good books now....I feel weird when i dont read anything. I tried to look for "Me and Mr. Darcy" but it is out of stock. ZzzZzz...

Oh yeah....I havent told about my dream lately. It was a weird dream, I was walking on the bridge with a faceless guy. We saw a couple quarreled not far from us and I saw myself holding the faceless guy's hand...I mean tightly...then I rested my chin on his left shoulder and said, "last time we also always quarrel like them, right?" Then he smiled at me and squeezed my hand.

Hahaha.....nonsense. Orait....time to go. Ciao!

Is it emo?

I don’t know what happen to me these few days. I always wake up around 2 am – 3 am despite I sleep at 1 am.

Last night we were having dinner at RH. I sat together with Sharon, Angela, Ju, and some other people that I forgot the name. The foods were okay....but this morning Alex told me that last night was the worst dinner he ever had. Well....the ginseng soup was okay...so I have no comment to this. Apart from that, at least our table won the lucky draw. :P

After dinner, we went to Hijau, oh...orait....I ordered Blood Mary and the taste was gross. Next time I will make sure that I won't other the same drink. Few hours inside Hijau, my mind wandered around. I preferred listening rather than talking, after all I had nothing to say. A few times the singers approached us and greet us friendly. Hmm...they paid for that...

Oh..okay...we forget about that for now. Yesterday I learned few new words that I rarely use; 1. Absurb = Ridiculous, 2. Indulgence = Hobby, 3. Ostentatious = Show-off, 4. Ditch = Leave, 5. Utterly = Completely, 6. Conspicuous = Obvious.

So next time i will make sure to use these words often. :P

Oh yea....yesterday I talked to Siput regarding my emo day. Normally I will try to avoid the conversation, it is maybe because I tried to forget the past. After few years, this is the first time I talk about the issue. But I don't feel like to write about it here either. :P

Last week we had CNY holiday. I spent 4 days to read Twilight Saga. 1 book for each day. Reading Bella's perspective really annoyed me. I really hate Bella, I always think of her as a stupid gal and wish that if I was inside the book myself, I bet I will slap her face. She can't control her 'lust' toward Edward which made me really sickin' tired of reading her part. But, after I read the partial Midnight Sun from Edward's perspective, it really changed me. Oh okay....I was being biased with Bella. She deserved Edward's love. :P Edward saw her as a very interesting gal, she is a shy gal, matured, brave and not selfish. And...she will protect the one she loved. Orait.....Bella wins.

When i read the books from 2 different character's perspective, it made me think, oh...this is the reality. This is how we think toward other people and this is how other people think of us. The thing that made me feel uneasy was when we stayed near someone who can read people's mind. Actually before I read Twilight Saga, I already think about this. That's why when i was alone, I restrained myself from gossiping (in my mind) other people. Oh....and also restrain myself from having fantasy with someone I know. Normally the guy in my imagination will have no face. :P Eww......Just imagine if someone like Edward is around us, and he can read our mind. And let say if i can read people's mind, I also do hope someone will never ever having me in their fantasy. eww.....

I shared this interest with Siput. We discussed about each characters; well, it's not like you like the movie because the actors or the actresses are cute. My bf mistook me by this. Well....it annoyed me when he said, "Yea...a lot of people love that movie. The actor is cute. They also wish that their boyfriend is a vampire." Ewwww.......irritating! I'm not talking about the movie...I'm talking about the books!!! I preferred the books rather than the movies and I don't expect the characters will be that handsome or pretty. I just like the characters for whoever they are. Hmm.....It's hard to explain. My bf doesn't understand me, which make me seldom sharing anything with him anymore. I'm being unfair but yea... *shrug*

My favorite characters are : 1. Edward - because the way he loves Bella and the way he protects Bella, besides, mind reading is quite interesting. Oh, I considered him as a strong guy which can control himself....well....if I'm a vampire, maybe I can restrain myself from eating human; hmm...just imagine that I'm on diet. Wakakakaka....
2. Carlisle - first of all, unique name. :P Then his personality and also very supportive. 3. Seth - i love this wolf so much, I can imagine him as a cute boy and also as a cute wolf...I bet if he is in front of me, I will always hug him (he in wolf form)...remind me of Shuu (in One Piece). Oh...okay....I think despite he is still young, but he is the most rational people in the book. And he also very loyal to his friend. Yerp...he is Edward's best friend, after they fight the vampires together make their relationship become close. I understand how Seth's feeling when he reluctant to fight against Cullens. The best scene (my imaginary) ever in the book was when Seth and Edward fighting Victoria; the time when both of them surround by Victoria and her mate, Seth's tail touched Edward's back. Victoria thought that Edward will be killed by the wolf. Hahahaha....*hugged Seth tightly* :P. 4. Alice - The one and only female character that I like. I always imagine her as a cute gal with agility; so energetic. And she is very optimistic. especially the time when she keeps asking Edward, "so when can i talk to bella?". 5. Benjamin - this vampire has the same character with Seth (but i don't feel like hugging him since he is not a wolf.:P). I cannot imagine his face and since he only appears in Book 4, so he's not so famous. He has his own standpoint and his power consider powerful too. 6. Jasper - I imagine his face differently. I like him because of his interesting history. He is the most experienced fighter in Cullen. So....that's it.

So...between Vampire and the wolf...which one I like? I choose Vampire (this is not because of what my bf thought "all the gals want to become a vampire"). It's nothing to do with their beautiful appearance but because they never sleep. Hahahaha....Wow...if i have that power (errr....not the insomnia...i hate being tired due to lack of sleep)..i'm sure many things can be done. I like to learn many things, and sometimes once i start reading/doing something, I cant stop myself until I have to force myself to sleep. I need to get some rest for tomorrow activities.. So troublesome i guess.

This is all about Twilight Saga huh? Yea....coz recently I read the books. Anyway, I'm gonna buy a new book since I finish with all the series. Maybe today I need to go to the bookstore? I'll think of it later.

I'm In Love???

Oh....okay.....this will sound so ridiculous....I'm in love again....with....something that doesn't exist. Hahahaha.....It's quite embarrassing actually and my friends (Panda, Lon, etc) told me that this is really ridiculous. Haiz~

Okay....here we go....yesterday I bought dvds....Twilight, New Moon, Post Grads, Fairy Tooth.....and i watched Twilight and New Moon. Oh...alright...I don't like the actors (I mean I'm not interested with the actors) but I do like the characters...especially all the Cullen family. They are the vampire but they never make humans as their prey. It's kinda like a vegetarian vampire. Lol! Well....I like the idea. And...I like Edward Cullen....coz....I do wish I have a soul-mate like him. Yerp...that's true, I always wish I have someone that can always protect me....coz I always feel that I'm a very independent person. I do everything according to myself....it seems like I dont need a guy in my life. In fact I'm still searching for my soul-mate, at least my true soul-mate.

I always wish I have someone that can control me, that can be jealous of me, that can scold me whenever i do wrong, that can protect me....

What a nice day~

Today is a nice day....All big bosses not around (going for holiday) and my boss is/was busy with outside matter. :P

Waaa.....I read the One Piece manga episode 574. So sad.....Ace gonna dies. Noooooooo!!!! Please don't make this happen. Why everything that I read were so sad?

And then i received an email from bro' asking me to help him on his assignment. ZzzZzz... C Programming!!! How many years already since i taking my degree....How can i remember all those things? And some more C Programming....what the heck?!!! Errr....C and C++, is that the same? :P Coz last time I took C++.

And bro said he gonna back to hometown. Nooooooo!!! I thought my CNY holiday will be a "holiday" for me....seems like I have to cope with him and his assignment. *bleh*

Noon time later, I plan to go to Post Office, after that go to the bank to bank in the money and after that will go to bookstore....yay! Hope there's another new story book.....and I also thinking of buying dvd. Haven't decide what movie I want to watch yet.

Twenties Girl

Today I just come back from traveling. Nothing much happened while traveling and i was glad that my 'presentation' consider as successful. I was introduced to my ex-student which become one of the admins.

Before the presentation, I did have butterfly in my stomach but once I talked, I couldn't stop myself. :P It was lucky that I did do some revision coz some of the 'audience' did ask the questions which i can answer perfectly (i guess).

Wow, I couldn't believe my own ears when i heard myself said "leaf sampling, normally we will carry out once our palms reach the age of 30 - 36 months which is why we didnt do any leaf sampling here since our palms are still very young. But we did do this leaf sampling but in our other estates." Wow!

But I must remember this : Sub-soil method for manuring is for flooding area, and broadcasting method (normal method) is for normal area. Err....what is sub-soil method actually? Sometimes I feel like I am just like Emma Corrigon.....I am the professional, I am the high level executive and must act professional, I must give my confident face and don't worry, they won't ask me "what is sub-soil mean?", coz we all know what is sub-soil mean (which is...I don't. :P).

When I talked in front, I couldnt stop thinking that (my instinct) some of the audiences must be admired me, admired my style. I am just like a superstar in my own small world. Which remind me of "do not wish to be somebody else coz you don't have any ideas what is their life looks like." That's true, some people might admire me, but they don't have an idea of my life. I wish I am not me, I wish that I am one of the heroins in Sophie Kinsella's books. Sometimes I do look like one of them except that I never find my hero...or maybe not yet? Awww c'mon.... I will never find my hero. *sobs....sobs....*

Oh yea...we had nice foods....we had prawns (big prawns), we had BBQ, and the auntie was forcing me to eat 3 big scoops of rice. After that I really couldn't get up. Lol! After the presentation, we having 1 more round of eating. Lol! If everytime like this, I bet I will become fat!!! (Nnnnnyyyyyoooooo)

And talking about a book that i read lately (err....actually I just finish it today), Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella. Wow.....fabulous...marvelous....superb!!! Err....any other word to describe the book? I cannot compare the book with "Can You Keep A Secret?" Both are the best from S.K. While "Can You Keep A Secret?" is more to romance, Twenties Girl is more to ghostly bonding? Err....is that a correct word....I just suddenly thinking of wanna use that word. Lol! There is romance, there is ghostly, there is a funny part, and there is a sad part which make me cannot stop but cry.

This Twenties Girl, I really can feel the story, yea, the crazy part is when Sadie asking Lara to go straight to the room and ask the guy to go out with her, which is, actually that is not an office but a conference room where people having their meeting and Lara is so 'kewl'...she is brave enough to ask the guy out. Wow....

And another wow again coz at last both of them become a couple (thank to Sadie). But the sad part is when at last they found the necklace (which mean the unfinished business is finish now), and once Lara put the necklace back to Sadie's body, her spirit was gone. It is so sad because before Sadie gone forever, she did many great jobs for Lara. Just suddenly like that, Lara becomes glamorous and famous. And the part where Lara and Sadie didn't talk for 3 days, and Lara tried to look for her everywhere until she found her painting which is become so famous. And at last she found Sadie at Jazz festival, and the part when Sadie said, "I miss you." *cries* And the time when Ed Harrison confessed that he loves Lara. *Awwww*

I dont care with the 'romance' part, I dont care with Ed's part, what touched me is Sadie and Lara part. I can imagine them; I can imagine how Sadie gone.

Really got some morale in that story; appreciate the elders. (I miss my late grandpa and my late grandma....I always dream of them....they are one of the best things in my life).

And quote of the day : "Life is like escalator....You must move on....just enjoy the view while you move on."

Another quote : " There are other men, there are other countries, there are other lives to live." <-- This quote really gives me strength. Even if I cannot find my hero, it's ok...I still need to move on....

Wow...enough with the emo!! Okay..i really need to go...or else I will never stop crying later (not about the 'hero' but about Sadie and Lara).

Monday Blues

It's Monday again... As usual, early morning feel so lazy to wake up to work (but so weird because on weekend i can wake up as early as 5am!). Today got nothing much to do, but I just make myself busy, reading some revision books just to prepare myself for the possibility tomorrow. Oh yeah...tomorrow will travel again, but this time I asked M to go along with me. Well...at least I got friend. Hehehe....

Boss seems to notice my 'hardworking' today coz he didn't even bother to disturb me. Well....that's a good thing also...and he didn't know that i just pretending only. :P

Afternoon time, after lunch, I'm suppose to take a nap but my brain so hyperactive; dunno why suddenly I figure out why they call the frond as frond 9, frond 17, etc. Because each frond will produce 8 spirals. Make sense right? :P

And....the TE is stand for Trace Element.....meaning the micro-nutrients. And another thing is, I need to make sure that I remember that K is stand for Potassium and P is for Phosphorus.

It seems like I will sit for important exam and today I need to do the revision. ZzzZzz... The fact is, there will be no exam for me but I'm the one that gonna give a test. :P

And now, talking about weekend.....Last weekend I was busy with my The Sims 3. Well, at least I 'build' 3 houses. The old character (Jack Harper) seems like missing in action once I added a new character. ZzzZzz....I tried to look for him everywhere, even I tried to 'ask' his gf, and she said that she is single. So where is my Jack Harper gone? No choice, I have to get a new Jack Harper with no skill and he found his wife. After settle down with Jack Harper (now no more Jack Harper coz after he married to this wife, his family name was changed to Grandell), so I created a new gal character.

This gal named Charlene will max all the skills and will complete all the quests before she settle down her life. And her house....is actually my dream house. Wait until I get the photo shot, then I will paste it here. The house mix with modern house and chinese house. In the middle, there is a small garden + pond. There's a bridge too. But the house is quite big for a single person like Charlene. Lol!

Oh yea....I also watched One Piece. I dont want to comment much about One Piece coz I plan to make a synopsis for every episodes that I watch. Which mean I need to re-watch it again later. I'm so sad, to think of Ace gonna dies while Luffy cant save his own brother even the thing happen in front of him. Haiz~

Oh yea....talking about 'dream'. I had this funny dream....On Saturday night, dunno why I dream of the snake. So many snakes and 1 of the snakes climb my leg....and that actually wake me up!!! In reality, I even tried to push the snake away from me and pheww....that was a dream!!!

And last night I dream of snakes + crocodiles. I tried to run away from the snake (okay....a snake only...but that snake even can jump and fly. ZzzZzz), and then suddenly I walked on a flooding area.....1 guy told me that the place was actually full with crocodiles...and I saw 2 small crocodiles bite him. ZzzZzz....

So, that's all for today... Ciao.. :P

Piss Off!!

These few days, I was really pissed off with some of the staff. But by the time I write this blog, the feeling was gone. So I'm not gonna talk about it anymore.

Anyway, yesterday I learned 2 new words : suan = sour; and tian = sweet. Lol! Okay, forget about it.

Oh yeah....yesterday D.D (my old friend cum my ex-classmate) called me, many things happened these past few years, and many things changed too. He told me he is married. Oh...okay... And when we talked, it just like our old times, and he told me, "We are getting matured" and I added, "And getting old...."

It just he is not meant for me...so yeah...(full stop).

Another thing also, I bought a new story book from Sophie Kinsella, "Twenties Girl". I plan to read the book next week while traveling.

And....(Lol! Seems like these will never end...) I also started to learn to play piano again. Still in progress and I need to learn the basic again. Haiz~ The most important thing is, I must learn how to remember the code and where they are located on the staff. Err.....I don't know the specific term for those things. Hehehehe...

Anyway...for trebble clef : FACE....and Every Good Boy Does Fine?

And for bass clef : All Cow Eat Grass? and err.....I havent come out with another clue... :P

Memoirs of IMH (Mental Hospital)

Record I

Patient A: "So how... this book not bad ya?"

Patient B: "Excellent! Astounding work.. No nonsense shit, sharp and concise to the point. But there's a major flaw in this piece of art too many character names to remember!!!"

Nurse: "Hey! Can the two of you..put the telephone book back to the original place?"


Record II

One doctor asked a patient: "If I were to cut one of your ear off, what will happen to you?"

Patient: "Then I will not be able to hear...."

Doctor: "Hmm.. that's normal...So if I were to cut your other ear off, what will happen to you?"

Patient: "Then I will not be able to see..."

The doctor became nervous and asked: "Why would you not see then???"

Patient: "Because my spectacles will drop down..."


Record III

IMH has an old lady who wears black everyday, carries a black umbrella and squats @ the entrance to the IMH everyday without fail, rain or shine.

The doctor wanted to administer treatment for her and decided to start by understanding her behaviour.

So, the doctor also wear black and carries a black umbrella; squatted outside together just next to her, rain or shine, everyday without fail.

So...days goes by...the two of them squatted side-by-side w/o a single exchange of words..for one solid month...

One fine day..the old lady finally broke the silence and asked the doctor: "Err...Excuse me! Are you also a mushroom?"


Record IV (the best)

A nurse saw a patient writing a letter.. She got curious and went to take a peek.. But the patient didn't wanna let her see.

Nurse (unable to contain her curiosity): "Who are you writing to?"

Patient : "I'm writing a letter to myself..."

Her curiosity grew and she thought to herself (Why would someone write a letter to himself?)

So she asked again: "So...what's written inside?"

Patient (got impatient): "You crazy ah? I haven't receive the letter, how would I know??"


Record V

Two patients escape from the IMH. They climbed up a tree and one of them fell from the tree and started rolling on the ground.

After a while, the patient rolling shouted to the top: "Hey! How come you are not coming down yet?"

The patient ontop replied: "No..no...I can't...I'm not ripe yet"


Record VI

One patient visited the doctor: "Doc...how? I think I'm a chicken since I was born..."

Doctor: "Woah! that's very serious...Why do you only come and seek treatment now?"

Patient: "Because my family needs me to hatch the eggs..."


Record VII (Perfect)

One truck driver was doing his usual delivery to IMH.. He discovered a flat tyre when he was about to go home after unloading the stuff.

He jacked up the truck and took the flat tyre down. When he was about to fix on the new tyre, he accidentally dropped all the bolts into the drain.

The truck driver was very sad as he can't fished the bolts up; started to panic.

Coincidentally, one patient walk past and asked the driver what happened.

The driver thought to himself, since there's nothing much he can do, he told the patient the whole incident.

The patient nonchantly replied: "can't even fix such a simple problem...no wonder you are destined to be a truck driver..."

he goes on explaining:

"You just have to take one bolt each from the other 3 tyres and fix it onto this tyre. Drive to the nearest workshop and replace the missing ones"

The driver was very impressed and asked "You're so smart but why do you stay in IMH?"

Patient replied: "I stay here because I'm crazy not STUPID!"