It's My Life

Wow....everything is wow today! Yesterday I told Panda about 'that guy' and he suggested to me to check maybe he got FB. At first i told Panda...impossible someone like him will have FB. Anyway, last night I was doing something else, so i forgot about FB. But before sleep last night I already thought of that but too lazy to check.

Only today I tried and yesss...i found him. Well....at first the search come out with so many names.....but dunno why suddenly i think of putting "Sibu" in front and come out with 1 search result...which is him!!!! Woot...

I added him as friend in FB, and after back from work, i checked and he posted something on my wall, "thnx for add.." so i replied, "np. ^^ shalom" and then he replied back "=)"

And at first i thought wanna send private message to him regarding his writing on his wall regarding the sunday church dinner incident. Luckily I havent send the message to him and I saw him online. ^^ So i greeted him first with "shalom". muahahaha....and we chat!

Yes....we talked about the beer incident. Even talking about Epesus 5:18. ZzzZzz....I wonder its kinda weird....as i opened the page and saw the sentence about "perkahwinan di Kana" so I told him about that and he said, "I already predicted you will say that."

Okay...before I forgot, I must write it down here what he thinks about me :-

1. He said he was surprised to see me in FB and he recognized me at once.

2. He said he looked at my camera on Saturday and tried to control his smile but I didnt take his picture. :P

3. He noticed me on Saturday, busy taking photos. (i think he knew a bit about me before....as he said he heard people talking about me always taking photos for church event)

4. On Sunday, he said he almost wanna asked whether I have FB or blog when I mentioned about internet. It just like both of our wish being granted. ^^ So with this I shoot back at him, "Ketentuan Tuhan."

5. He asked whether I'm single or not. Hahahaha.....Dont ask my age, but I bet he knew. :P

6. The chatroom in FB down but we still chatting via private message in FB. It's funny when he told me one gal doesnt know who he is...asking him to serve the 'drink'. Hahahaha.....

7. He said once he back from Korea, I can chat about anything with him. Hmm.....just like he's making another 'date' with me? O.o

8. Last thing, he promised he will buy something for me from Korea. O.o (woot....really...???)

9. Oh, speaking of chatting, asking, sharing, discussing with him, he asked why I didnt ask/talk to him while he was in front of me instead of chatting in FB? <--i ignored his question. :P

Yea...i guess God has His own intention. Siput....remember I told you that I had him in my dream? Some more continuously dreaming of him....it's really connected to him. Same wish.... Hahahaha....Noo...I wont give him my blog page, or else he will read all these writings.

Tomorrow he will go to Korea for 1 week....till then I wont contact him....and see these will lead to what next. But he did mention to me, he will always go from one place to one place as God's servant. ^^

Monday Comes!!!

It's Monday again. What a boring day tho' I have many works waiting for me. :P While breakfast this morning, colleagues asked whether I will make open house during Gawai. I was planning on that but not so sure tho' as mom will go to Miri. I just so lazy whenever i think of cleaning the whole house and alone!!!!

Talking about last weekend, indeed I had a happy and enjoyable weekend. Friday night, I went to the church to 'rehearsal' after visiting David's wife and the new born baby. At church, I tried to play the drums. Hahaha, dont get me wrong, actually that was the first time I play the drums. :P

On Saturday, I guess I slept the whole day, and evening we went to the church to attend Jesselyn's wedding ceremony. That was the best day of the week, I joined mom and friends poco-poco until sweating. Hahaha.... I was pretty good even that's the first time I tried poco-poco. (Zzz.....the most important thing is the step. Not so hard to learn tho'.)

Okay....straight to the point, actually I had a little crush on someone. Hahaha.... The guy is the best man. I don't really bother, until....Sunday. :P Anyway, he also joining us singing. After the ceremony at the church, we went to the bride's house. I guess I drank a lot that night. The best part is, all the ladies inside the house and the guys outside, so we can enjoy to the fullest without guys disturb us. I prefer it that way, as I dont like the guys. Hahaha...I couldnt see the guy that I crush on but bet he's downstair, sitting together with my dad.

On Sunday, mom asking me to join her having lunch at the bride's house. I met the guy again. I think here I started to notice him. He sat in front of me and nope, I dont bother to stare at him. Hahaha..... And he 'blessed' the foods for us. Ahh......what a wonderful voice. It's been a long time I didnt hear someone who can say a prayer like that. He has a husky voice, really makes him look matured. Hahaha.....I'm a silly gal who always fall for someone like that. ZzzZzz...

The best part was after lunch and we all sitting in the living room, chatting. Then mom told her friends (and he also listening) that I 'lecturing' her the other day. Mom's friends said, "Because your children loves you." Glad that the guy agreed too. :P

Then evening time, we went for dinner at Li Hua Hotel. The guy also coming! And at first i thought he sat at table No. 13 but then just realized that he sat next to my table, in fact only behind me. :P But nah, guess he didnt notice me, but he really has a good manner....with the elders. ZzzZzz.... Hahaha....I will always fall for someone like that. Nah, guess he just respected my parents as they are part of the important person in church. ZzzZzz.... And he didnt (not even once) shake hands with me even I was standing next to him. ZzzZzz....

And what did you do in front of the guy that you like? Go drinking beers!!!! And laughing like crazy together with mom and friends!!! And also get up and dance on the stage!!! Hohoho.....I already gave bad impression. Just wonder how does it feels to have a couple as someone who will become a 'pastor' in future. Hahaha.... Nope....I'm definitely not made for him as I'm the 'evil' one and he is the 'angel' one.

I thought good guy doesn't exist anymore. Haiz~ Too bad good guys will never like me...because....apparently, they are all very young. :P

Orait...time to continue my work. Ciao!

Perfume...Eu De Toilette

Woot....bought these yesterday. I like the Love Etc. from The Body Shop but too bad the scent is not long lasting.

I should type a lot here but dunno somehow I feel no mood to comment anything. But I really enjoyed the shopping yesterday. I even took half day leave just to go shopping!!! And only went back home at 6pm. :P

But yesterday i was 'saved by the bell'. When i walked to Parkson, suddenly my sandal broken and I need to walk back to the car to get another sandals. I already predicted this thing will happen and put extra sandal inside the car. :P Luckily not many people that time and I bet nobody realized that I walked with my bare foot. Hahaha...

Parkson got sell, bought tracksuit + jacket (one suit) which cost only $89 while the real price suppose to be $200. Then bought new shoes + sandals which cost only $40 while the real price suppose to be $100. Then bought 2 cashmere shirts for only $40. Then bought perfumes. I really loved this part. I guess my first novel really helped a lot. For a while i did some researches regarding my writing, and these really helped at the perfumes shop. :P

Speaking of Love Etc. The base note: musk, sandalwood, vanilla; The middle note: Jasmine, heliotrope, lily of the valley; Top note: neroli, bergamot, pear. But what I can smell are vanilla and musk. Too bad the scent doesn't blend with my body scent. The 2nd perfume that I bought is from Silky Girl, Sporty. Also the Vanilla and Musk scent really strong as well as the alcohol also really strong.

Next month I will get the Elizabeth Arden perfume. It's kinda funny coz I start 'crazy' with perfumes.

Then went to Daesim to buy watch and earrings. The watch is green color, the beaded watch. Then went to Premier to buy jeans and belt. The original price suppose to be $120 but I get the 50% discount and I get the red color belt to match the jeans.

Today i wear new jeans, new cashmere shirt (pink strip), new belt, new shoes, new watch and also new perfume. Personally I like the belt....its really match with the shirt. Hahahaha...glad that i get the color. Next time I must get the white color belt....and also another watch to match with any color shirts. I like the jeans too tho' the size a bit bigger (i get the 28 size tho' my size is 27) ...but doesnt matter, i might grow bigger. Hahahaha.....

And I also surveyed for the laptop....and I asked about the original (i should say licensing) Microsoft Office. The guy said $288. I will go and check again next time. Haiz~

I know yesterday TH arrived at KL around 6.30pm. I just have some kind of weird feeling (but nah...nevermind...). I think these few days (weekend) I wont online so much as i want to occupy myself with 'real life'.

No matter what, life must goes on. He doesnt know my existence, at the same time, life is great....always.... Cheer up!!!

Happy Night Out?

Yesterday was the craziest day I ever had. After office hours, I went to Medan Mall to buy some sweets and gummies. I spent about $16 for that purpose only. :P

When I reached home, dad asked whether I want to join having dinner at my auntie's house, so I just said okay. That was not totally a worse dinner as I'm not the only 'subject' that night. Hahaha.....I just realized my cousin also on the same boat with me. His mom starts talking about marriage, then mom also interrupted. And both me and my cousin looked at each other meaningfully, "Gosh....."

At the same time my other auntie (all dad's sisters) served a glass of bacardi apple. At first I thought it was a sky juice. ZzzZzz....While the aunties-uncles nagging here and there, I kept drinking bacardi (with 32% alcohol) until half bottle finished. :P

It's a good thing when my cousin stand out for us and said, "We're not ready yet to involve in commitment." Hahahaha.... I dont know his issue, but for my issue, i think stay single is better as i have more freedom, hahahaha.....that's it, unless if Bill or Colin wants me? :P

We were talking about many issues, including the black magic, and even the dead. The best part was.....blackout! Nobody could see my face, errr....maybe a drunken face. :P We went back around 10pm, and I could feel my head spinning (but i dont think im drunk yet), great, bacardi on the rock really get me. Haha...

And that night, I had 3 dreams, the first dream was Humanoid City Tour. It's kinda weird coz they determine the tour with color; such as Yellow Humanoid City Tour, Green Humanoid City Tour....bla..bla...bla...

The 2nd dream was me...on the stage trying to perform a song which I wrote myself. I was accompanied by 2 more fellow which i believe my cousins, but the worst part is, when it was my turn to perform, suddenly my guitar strings tangled to each other, then 1 guy came and gave me 'sape'! So i was like, "What the hell!!! How can I play this song using sape'?" But no matter what, the show must go on, I played the song using sape' and in the middle of the song, I asked my cousin, "Come on tell me what's the next chord?" And she was like, "O, E.." in a loud voice and when i woke up, I was like, "Never heard any O chord." Hahaha....

But I still remember part of the song lyric, "Loving You, Loving Me.....Together we can make it true." And the melody is like the combination of a song "Loving You....." and also MJ song, "We are the world....we are the children....."

In my dream, I could see many queers people, mostly the blondie, some with the dreadlocks hair. Hmm...

Two Different Worlds

Title : Two Different Worlds

By : Ray Kidz

At the first time I see you,

I know that my heart belongs to you,

You just some kind of drugs to me,

I can't take away my eyes off you,

You drag me closer to you.

Everyone have tried to warn me,

This is only some kind of game,

I told them all, we were meant for each other,

I thought our world are the same,

There's nothing to ponder.

There's a wall between us,

You don't know my name,

But you cannot be blamed,

I wish I can break the wall,

So that we can be together forever.

We are from two different worlds,

You live in Forbidden Kingdom,

I only can see you,

But I cannot touch you,

And I cannot feel you.

Two different worlds...

Two different worlds...

Everyone have tried to tell me,

"You live in two different worlds",

Does it mean I'm not meant for you?

Oh please let it be...

You belong to me.

Two different worlds...

Two different worlds...

And now i understand,

We are from two different worlds,

I turn around,

But you walk away,

And all I want to say is....Goodbye....

Shadow Lover

Title : Shadow Lover

Shadow-Lover, never seen by day,
Only deep in dreams do you appear
Wisdom tells me I should turn away,
Love of mist and shadows, all unclear-
Nothing can I hold of you but thought
Shadow-Lover mist and twilight wrought.

Shadow-Lover, comfort me in pain.
Love, although I never see your face,
All who'd have me fear you speak in vain-
Never would I shrink from your embrace
Shadow-Lover, gentle is your hand
Never could another understand.

Shadow-Lover, soothe me when I mourn
Mourn for all who left me here alone,
When my grief is too much to be borne,
When my burdens crushing-great have grown,
Shadow-Lover, I cannot forget-
Help me bear the burdens I have yet.

Shadow-Lover, you alone can know
How I long to reach a point of peace
How I fade with weariness and woe
How I long for you to bring release.
Shadow-Lover, court me in my dreams
Bring the peace that suffering redeems.

Shadow-Lover, from the Shadows made,
Lead me into Shadows once again.
Where you lead I cannot be afraid,
For with you I shall come home again-
In your arms I shall not fear the night.
Shadow-Lover, lead me into light.

Another Idea...

Okay.....this one will be a 'collaboration' with Siput.....we will come out with 2 songs (for started):-

1. Dunia Kita Berbeza

2. Shadow Lover

1. Dunia Kita Berbeza, this song will be mixed english-malay.

2. Shadow Lover, this is totally an english song.....i might come out with something like Phantom Rider. :P

We'll see how's the result later. This is just a plan.....I need to write it down or else I will forget it next. So, how do we get the idea? From word teasing.... Hahahaha..... :P

IS Training

Today is the first day of training. i guess i dont pay any attention. :P Luckily i bring along my phone and nw can online via phone. zzz...the trainer is so boring. His voice really make me feel so sleepy,