Gawai Celebration

3 groups come at the same time....fuhh...quite busy that time..

Baby Cyrus

Lucky the compound is big, still can park 1 more car here..

This is a naughty cat owned by Atek and BB Panjai.

Chicken curry and rendang daging....still not yet cooked.

Some of the dishes for Gawai Open House.

To Kill My Boredom

Simba and Lionel. Both also so cute. Why I like these cute little lions? Coz during our 1st outing, he accompany me to 1Utama to buy hand puppets and I found Lionel there. I bought Lionel for myself and bought Simba for his birthday present.

Same goes to this picture. Err...I mean the smile...Hahahaha....

Quite messy but I like the smile!

Oh, alright, my sayang and some of his close friends.(From left to right : Mohd Zulfadli, sayang, Azizul and Deskandar) Guy is totally different from girl. I like to see them together. I hope that I'm not the one that breaking their bonds. I am just a newcomer. ZzzZzz...

Why I like this picture? Because of the color! There's one good thing about Hari Raya celebration, everybody will wear new clothes. Too bad for me because I never bother to buy a new cloth for myself during festival.

Telling mom - I'm back!!!

I reached my hometown yesterday night. And I told mom about my relationship with him. At first mom was like, "whoaaa..." but then after I reasoned everything with mom, only then realized that mom actually don't really bother with religion issue but actually she just worried that I won't be back anymore. Hmm...

But really glad that I told mom everything. Told mom how I met him. And don't you think that the funny thing is....mom never bother to ask how does he looks like. But I know mom, she won't bother with appearance also. The most important thing is, I'm happy. And right now, I am really happy being with him.

Why do I like him? How come I can fall for him? Love is always a mysterious thing. We never know when it will strike us.

I want to write more about him here, but I'm lazy to arrange my words and type it out. Maybe I should just attached my convo. with him in YM, or the sms, or his email. There're few things that made him special to me like 'let me color your life', 'i'm with you', 'cukup duit belanja tak?' and few more. His words always touched me. Nobody ever treated me nicely like how he treated me. Tho' it was just a word from him (or just a sweet talk) but whatever it is, it touched my heart. I'm so glad that God let him entered my life, and I promise myself, I'm going to do my best for this relationship.

I'm glad that I'm telling mom about him and glad that I have a very supportive mother. Right now I wonder what is his parents' impression toward me? Age gap, religion issue, hometown issue, there's so many obstacles.

I prayed to God, if he really meant for me, please make him close to me, but if he is not meant for me, please comfort my heart and to accept my fate. But no matter how, he's getting closer to me and the love towards him is growing. So, is he the one for me?

The words from UKM girl also really touched my heart when she said, 'sy sedar ianya berpunca dari kesalahan dan kesilapan sy sendiri, namun logikkah penyelesaian yang diambil oleh si dia? tiada kata putus yang diambil, malah menerima insan lain sebagai kekasih hati tanpa memberitahu kepada sy, sedangkan ketika itu, sy masih lagi dilabelkan sebagai "gurlfren" nya...mana sifat ehsan dia? andai dia tahu ianya terlalu menyakitkan...

dia memilih seorang perempuan non-muslim, sebagai pengganti sy, menjadikan sy lebih tercabar dan rasa terhina. adakah dalam kepala dia, sy ini lebih teruk dari org yang bukan Islam? pada mulanya memang sy tidak boleh terima, tapi siapakah sy untuk melarangnya... namun, Allah tahu, sy terlalu menyayanginya..dan Allah membukakan pintu hatinya untuk kembali kepada sy... '

Why did she mention about religion? Are we that bad? ZzzZzz...But forget about that.....right now what really concerned me when she said 'Allah tahu saya terlalu menyayanginya dan Allah membukakan pintu hatinya untuk kembali kepada sy..' <-- Yes, that time he really re-declared with her again and he ditched me. I was like....it's okay....I'm nobody and worthless.

But why....if she really loves him, but why she couldn't treat him nicely and steal his heart? And, why at last they break up again, for the 2nd time? Which mean all the time his heart is actually with me.

God is really funny.....I prayed to God in a selfish way and God granted my wish. I asked God to give me the chance. But am I a bad person? Am I stealing him from the girl? Do i deserved him? And right now, I am even more selfish....i won't let go of him and I won't let the UKM girl win this fight for the 3rd time. She had enough with her chances and she wasted her chance before. I won't do the same, but will you God, blessed our relationship?

Am I sounded so desperate right now? Before this, i already claimed myself as a single person, and I don't believe in love anymore, I totally give up. But he entered my life and changed my perception toward love. I am worthy in God's eyes. This is the 1st time someone attracted to me at the first sight.

Thank God for all the blessing. Please keep protect me from the evil one and guide me always. Don't let me fall into temptation and trials.

Summarization - Why am I doing this?

It's been a long time for me not to write on this blog. On 24th May, 2011, I went out with 'him' and that was the 1st time for us to talk from heart to heart. It was not easy to open my mouth and asked about the UKM girl. I was just so curious why the girl wanted her friend to add me in FB. She wanted to know all about me, but why? So I asked him regarding this. And he told me the whole stories. Let me summarize it here:-

1. He met the UKM girl last year around May - June.

2. They declared as a couple in last year but they never met, they declared by phone.

3. They met for the first time in February 2011.

4. He bought shirt for her and she bought chocolates for him.

5. They seldom meet and the girl always scolded him and felt sulky with no reason.

6. He ever told the girl that she is the girl that always feel sulky and the worst 'sulky girl'. And she even admitted that.

7. Everytime he went to Bangi, he will buy something for her, for example, card, letter, etc.

8. They went out for movies and lunch.

9. Normally they meet during Saturday.

10.Sometimes the girl call, if not scolded, sometimes simply hang up the phone without saying good bye.

11.He met me on March, during Tioman trip.

12.Before he meets me, he already felt that the girl is really ZzzZzz.....

13.When he saw me, he wanted to know me more and the last day of Tioman trip, he walked with me to jetty and asked for my phone number coz he doesn't want to lose contact with me.

14.He still contact with the girl but the feeling is no more and at the same time, he said I always comfort him.

15.They held hands like 3 times, and the last day he met her (before break up), they also held hands.

16.He said he like me because of 'beautiness' and this is abstract.

17.25th April he broke up with the girl.

18.Before this, the girl always told him that she has so many admires and 1 of them is Firdaus. He doesn't like it. And he said, "Go for Firdaus then." But she doesn't want also.

19.26th April, the girl begged for him again.

20.29th April, last day of KOT he helped me to carry the printer and my friends teased and he said he liked it.

21.He re-declared with the girl again coz the girl begged him and cried.

22.She knows everything about me, she even stalked my FB, she even knows that I went out with him.

23.I heard she called him during the night I went for dinner with him at USJ. I could hear her voice.

24.The next day, he went to Bangi to find the girl coz she was sicked, sad and was crying. When I asked how sick was she that time, he said, not physically but heart broken only. ZzzZzz...(that's the last they met each other and did hold hands that time and he really regretted that).

25.10th May, afternoon he sms me (exactly right after I think of him).

26.He said he was inside the car, near Surau.

27.That night he broke up with the girl again. She cried, but he chose me.

28.But in email, he said he wanted to leave both (and 30 minutes later he email me again said don't want to lose me. :-) )

29.The next day, 11th May (camping trip), he proposed me to be his gf.

30.22nd May, in her FB she asked her friend to add me in FB, and told her friend I'm his new gf.

31.He said last message from her (either Saturday or Sunday) wished for his good luck in fnal exam and 'semoga berbahagia' and he replied same goes to her and she replied back, "saya benci awak". Wow! Such and answer!!!!

32.During his birthday, Saturday before his birthday and a day after finish practicum, they went out together and the girl gave him a shirt.

33.During his birthday I went out with him and gave him Simba. (really glad that i gave Simba to him)

Conclusion : It's really glad to hear the words from himself....

Testing

Testing....its been very long time I never wrote in this blog until I forgot the blog address. So lucky that I can retrieve my blog back. I will come out with a lot of juicy stories here. Just check it out!!! *wink*

Just a start...

Dear Blog,

It’s been a while that I stop writing. Anyway, I’m going to start again since I need to jot down everything that happen to me since I enter this IPG.

For the start, I’m going to tell you about my experience during orientation. *yawns* *I’m so lazy to write actually* Anyway, I received the result on 18^th January 2011. Lucky me coz Kevin told me about this. I thought the result will be out on 22^nd as per schedule. And I straight forward issued out my resignation letter – 24 hours notice of resignation. But with the help of my boss, it becomes 1 month notice of resignation. Don’t tell me how, coz I don’t want to talk about it. Hehehehe…

Anyway, 4 days are really not enough for me to settle everything; the medical check up, activate my BSN account, the air ticket some more and etc.

I managed to join music practice on Sunday before I fly to KL. Everything just so sudden…haiz~ guess that I always create havoc. Hahahaha….

Alright, talking about the orientation, 1 week orientation start on 24^th January 2011 until 28^th January 2011. It seems like from 63 thousands of people who applied for KPLI, I am among the 4,029 lucky people and in this IPG, we’re 110 that have been selected. Wow…Imagine of 27 IPG + 1 IPG induk with 4,029 people being located there. And I’ve been sent to IPGKBA – Kampus Bahasa Antarabangsa, in KL and our intake got 2 types of KPLI; KPLI-SR (BI) and KPLI-JQAF. But the JQAF people will be sent to school and they will only come back during the school holiday. And for us, we are the full timer.

Orientation was fun. We have to mix with the ustazah and the ustaz, and they all are so sporting. We have Ustaz Ver-sa-til (baku pronounciation), Ustazah Rock and also Ustazah Sammi (my room-mate, Kar Mee). I like that Ustazah Rock (forgot her name, I guess Fammi), she’s so funny. How I wish I have her enthusiastic.

Oh yeah…we also learned a new song, “Anak lah lipan, kaki nya banyak, goyang ke kiri, goyang ke kanan, hoi…” ß it’s a new song to me.

During riadah, our group lose to the other groups; well….we’re just lazy so we said, “Kami bersepakat untuk kalah.” And of coz we receive the ‘present’…..and we sing National Anthem song which causes everybody to stand up as well. Wakakakakaka…

And for closing ceremony…I become a choir’s instructor which holding the tv’s antenna.

And after the orientation, I stuck in the hostel while everybody go back to their hometown or their relatives’ house. I do nothing…RTM – Rehat, Tidur, Makan. Everyday eat maggi mee…yuck!

Tomorrow will be the last day of holiday…and I’m looking forward for BIG (Bina Insan Guru) on 9^th Feb – 12^th Feb 2011. ^^

Crazy Thursday

This is crazy. I started to learn guitar again. This time is from Youtube. And I guess I'm in love with 'that guy' now. Well...at the moment...as I'm not sure when I will get distract again. :p And I end up by sending a pm to him and asking whether he can help me make a video for a song "Come On and Celebrate" in plucking version.

And I noticed that my guitar fingering is getting better now. Thanks God. Anyway today is a great day for me as I join the recollection for the CCD group in Kanowit. And I realized one thing now; for church activity, I'll never be alone. God seems to know that last time I always worried about this and now I dont have to worry anymore. God always sending someone to accompany me.

How great is the feeling to receive a holy communion on the top of the hill, huh? Yerp...I did that. And we even having station of the cross, and also recite a Divine Mercy prayer (chaplet). I'm glad that I never hesitate to join at the first place.

And..the good thing is, sister Helen seems to acknowledge me now. And today someone told me that they thought that I'm actually a chinese. So i said, "No..i'm not...I'm Iban..." ^^

Dialogue (Comedic) - One Piece

Luffy, Zoro and Usopp: Chopper's a doctor?!?!

Nami: Why did you think we made Chopper join our crew?

Luffy: Seven Level transformation... Cool Reindeer...

Sanji: Emergency food supply...

(Context: Nami explains how Chopper was taught all of Dr Kureha's medical skill, which the other crewmates were oblivious to.)

Hachi: MY HAIR! You jerk! I'm gonna... I'm gonna... forgive you. I mean it's only hair, it'll grow back!

(Context: Zoro cuts off part of Hachi's hair during his fight with him.)

Arlong: Tell me, what hopeless difference is there between you and me?

Luffy: Nose... Jaw?

Yosaku: He... Is he playing around...?!

Johnny: No... I think he's serious.

Luffy: Webbed hands!

Arlong: IT'S OUR VERY SPECIES!!!

(Context: Arlong tries to explain to Luffy why he has no chance against him.)

Nami: Oh no!

Kalifa: [sexily strokes Nami's curvaceous body here and there through her revealing outfit as she weakens Nami with her powers.]

(Context: Kalifa gets behind Nami unnoticed, until too late)

Nami: [On all fours, she's having a hard time getting to her feet due to her Kalifa soaping her entire body. Her sexy breasts are gone; she's pissed] LOOK WHAT YOU DID TO MY BODY!?!

Kalifa: [Taunting] It's a pity that it also cleanses out your proportions. But look at your skin! It's gorgeous, I'm jealous

(Context: Nami after Kalifa turned her into a slippery mannequin. She loses her original figure.)

Yosaku and Johnny: Don't tell me Brother Luffy's secret plan was...!!

Luffy: LOOK! I GOT TEETH TOO!!!

Yosaku and Johnny (Thinking): There was no secret plan.

(Context: Luffy steals a pair of Arlong's teeth and puts it in his mouth.)

Sanji: Sorry, but i'm gonna have to decline your offer.

Luffy: No, I decline.

Sanji: You decline what?

Luffy: I decline your decline.

(Context: Sanji refuses to join the Straw Hats, but Luffy refuses to accept his decision.)

Luffy: Huh? Where is Chopper?

Luffy: Ah, there he is. (about 20 meters from Luffy lying in the sand)

Luffy: Why's he all the way over there?

Luffy: Is he trying to be funny?

(Zoro suddenly take his sword to Luffy's neck and Luffy's face became blue)

Luffy: Yes, it's my fault.

Luffy: I am sorry.

(Context: Luffy , Zoro and Chopper are walking in the desert when Luffy sees a place where there is a little shade and he wants to get there fast with the others so he uses Gomu Gomu no Rocket and this grabs the others with him)

Crocodile: But there's still a fundamental difference between you and I that you cannot overcome. That is the level of the Shichibukai (Seven Warlords of the Sea).

Luffy: So what if you're one of the Shichibukai? Then I must the Hachibukai (Eight Warlords of the Sea)!

(A bell sounds, in a comical way)

Cobra: Who is this man?

Robin: A pirate. Perhaps you haven't heard.

(Context: Luffy is fighting with Crocodile, and this conversation happens during their second fight)

Jango: Listen up you guys. Pirates really suck.

Fullbody: Oi oi, what are you saying? Did you forget or something? You used to be...a pirate!

Jango: Crap! Yeah, you're right! Shall we dance, baby?

Fullbody: LET'S DANCE!

(Context: Jango and Fullbody, after succesfully capturing a pirate ship for the Navy, have a discussion on pirates which quickly turns into a dance party)

Zoro: And that, is without a doubt, that.

Usopp: Yeah, he [Sanji] was a lost cause from the get-go.

Zoro: And so...

(Close up of Zoro and Usopp)

Zoro: The two of us are the last remaining bastions against her [Robin].

Usopp: Yeah, those weak-minded fools have failed us all.

Luffy: Oi, Usopp!

(Close up of Usopp looking very evil)

Usopp: Hmm?

(Close up of Luffy doing Chopper impression, with Robin's hands for Chopper's horns)

Luffy: Chopper!

(Luffy, Usopp and Chopper roll on the floor laughing, while Zoro looks irritated)

(Context: Robin wants to join the Straw Hat Pirates, but Usopp and Zoro do not trust her. Luffy then does a Chopper impression)

Usopp: AHH! IT'S NIGHT!

Chopper: THE WHIRLPOOL'S PULL IS GETTING STRONGER!

Usopp: We gotta pull out, Luffy! We can still make it! You understand, right!? This whirlpool alone is enough to kill us! Sky Island's just a dream within a dream!

Luffy: A dream within a dream? I guess so...

Nami: That's right, Luffy! I don't think I can do this either!

Luffy: An island from a dream within a dream? I could never pass up a great adventure like this!

Usopp: He... He's having fun...

(Context: The ship is sucked into a whirlpool that will supposedly send them to Skypiea.)

Nami: They still haven't decided yet? Sanji, that ball looks lovely on you!

Sanji: YES!!! I AM THE BALLMAN!!! I WAS BORN TO PLAY THIS ROLE!!!

Zoro: Seriously, you look great, just like a prince, of the Idiot Kingdom.

(Context: During the Davy Back Fight's Groggy Ring, the Straw Hat team tries to decide who will be the ball man.)

Alvida: Is that the bounty hunter you hired? Well, he certainly isn't Roronoa Zoro...

Koby: ...!

Alvida: So I'll give you one chance to repent... Who is the fairest throughout all the seas? Answer me!!!

Koby: Heh heh heh... Lady Alvida, you--

Luffy: Hey, who's that tough-looking old biddy?

Alvida: !!!!

Alvida's Crew: How dare... No way!

Koby: Luffy!! Take it back!! Throughout all of the seas, Lady Alvida is... Lady Alvida is...

Flashback Luffy: I'm gonna be the king of the pirates... And if I die trying... Then at least I tried!

Koby: Lady Alvida is... The ugliest old hag of all!!!

(Context: When Alvida meets Luffy, she thinks he is a bounty hunter hired by Koby to kill her. She asks Koby who the fairest woman in the seas is, and he starts to say it's her, then Luffy insults her. Koby is shocked, then remembers what Luffy said to him, and decides to be brave.)

Koby: Luffy, why did you go to sea anyway?

Luffy: Well, ya see... I'm gonna be the King of the Pirates!!!

Koby: K-King of the Pirates!!!? But... You'd have to make the whole world kneel to you!!! Wealth, fame, power-- You'd have to achieve it all!!! Don't tell me you're after Gold Roger's lost treasure, "One Piece"!!!! Do you want to die!? Every pirate in the world is after that!!

Luffy: And so am I.

Koby: But the odds against you are astronomical!!? It's impossible!! You want to be the King of the Pirates in the golden age of piracy!? It'll never happen!!

(Luffy punches Koby in the face)

Koby: Hey! W-Why'd you hit me!?

Luffy: 'Cause I felt like it...

(Spandam about to take Nico Robin and Franky to the Gates of Justice)

Spandam: Listen up, you bunch of fools! We urgently have to take Nico Robin away from the Straw Hat! We are heading to the Gates of Justice immediately! Bring those two!

Marine: Ch-Chief!

Spandam: It's alright, so won't you hurry for once!?

Marine: But...Franky's butt is inflating!

(Franky's butt has become abnormally large)

Spandam: Aah! What the hell is that?

Franky: Oh, Spanda! I perceived my own life's end, and I chose the path of self-destruction instead.

Spandam: What!??

Franky: At least I'll take all of you down with me.

Spandam: IDIOT! Idiiot, wait!

Franky: With a giant explosion of a three kilometer diameter, I'm gonna close the curtain on my existence. Don't you try to stop me!

(All Marines begin to run away frantically)

Spandam: Stop it! Save me! Don't involve me in this!

Franky: Three...two...

Spandam: Damn! I can't die here!

Franky: One!

Spandam: STOP IT!!

(Spandam jumps over the ledge of a staircase and lands on top of Marines below)

Franky: Let's go, Nico Robin!

(Franky grabs hold of Robin with his legs)

Franky: Coup de Boo!

(Franky farts loudly and sends himself flying through a wall and onto the balcony of the tower of Justice)

(After Luffy arrives on the Courthouse roof)

Spandam: Listen to his desperate shouting! I wonder what kind of expression he has?

Luffy: (With his finger up his nostril) What are you babbling about?

Spandam: He's picking his nose!?

(When Sogeking shot down Spandam and Nico Robin started running away)

Spandam: Shoot her!Shoot her to death without killing her!

Marines: HUH?!

(After an avalanche in the country of snow)

Vivi: Usopp-san!

Usopp: What, Vivi? Don’t wake me up. I was having the most beautiful dream. Really, it was a world like nothing I’ve seen before...with its beautiful flower fields and its beautiful rivers.

Vivi: DON’T GO TO THAT WORLD!

Usopp: Ah, the river, the river...

Vivi: Don’t fall asleep! WAKE UP! (hits him repeatedly)

Usopp: Ah! You saved me Vivi! So this is what it means to return from the brink of death! It’s great that I’m alive, but... (the camera pans to his bloated face)...is it me, or is my face swollen?

Vivi: I-it’s frostbite. Frostbite.

Usopp: Is it me, or does my head seem a bit heavier?

Vivi: These Snowy Countries are dangerous, you know...

Usopp: Is it me, or is my field of vision narrower?

Vivi: Besides, we have to hurry. We need to gather our bearings and asses our situation!

Usopp: Yeah, it’s probably just my imagination.